Chasing Liberty [To Be With You]

2007-11-25T19:27:00.000+08:00

Blogging is not a waste of time.

It's just that i could use that time to teach some tuition, watch some television, watch some drama and do some stuff.

signing off.

2007-11-11T14:03:00.000+08:00

Dun meant to be crude.
But someone said that procrastination is just like masturbation, in the end, you are just f**king yourself.
Ha Ha.

2007-09-28T17:54:00.000+08:00

Got a hall. Back to hall 14. I found out that i love studying in lee wee nam library. No more long and irritating bus/train rides to sch. BUT i will be only staying in hall on tuesday, wednesday only. Darn... See how it goes.

2007-09-21T18:38:00.000+08:00

The Taiwanese drama craze is back.

18 censored or not!!!

woahoooooooooooooOOOoOoooOOooo

Recess is here.

time to catch up.

2007-09-16T01:24:00.000+08:00

Glenn Frey - The One You Love Lyrics print version

I know you need a friend, someone you can talk to
Who will understand what you're going through
When it comes to love, there's no easy answer
Only you can say what you're gonna do
I heard you on the phone, you took his number
Said you weren't alone, but you'd call him soon
Isn't he the guy, the guy who left you cryin'?
Isn't he the one who made you blue?
When you remember those nights in his arms
You know you gotta make up your mind

Are you gonna stay with the one who loves you
Or are you goin' back to the one you love?
Someone's gonna cry when they know they've lost you
Someone's gonna thank the stars above

What you gonna say when he comes over?
There's no easy way to see this through
All the broken dreams, all the disappointment
Oh girl, what you gonna do?
Your heart keeps sayin' it's just not fair
But still you gotta make up your mind

Are you gonna stay with the one who loves you
Or are you goin' back to the one you love?
Someone's gonna cry when they know they've lost you
Someone's gonna thank the stars above

*nice song - i wanna learn to play it on the piano

2007-09-15T01:21:00.000+08:00

我觉得我自己不适合结交异性的朋友。每当我认识一个新的异性朋友，久而久之我会不知觉的慢慢地跟她们疏远而去。我不懂这是什么原因。同性的朋友法反而不会有这种问题存在。或许是因为男人与男人之间有同样的话题，又或者是因为当男女之间的友情变质后，会往往疏远对方。我觉得我很奇怪，或者是一个很幼稚的人。

我只对美丽的东西而感兴趣。

比如说一只手套。我喜欢选购或者挑选美丽又新颖的款式，但是不到两三个月，就会重新寻找另外几双更新有

不同大小的手套。白色的手套反而似乎每天都陪伴着我身边。如果手套突然间变变成不是手套，反而变成了一

种超越喜欢的感觉，就好像天天把手套穿着，不舍得取下来。这就是手套与主人之间的感情变质。

人们需要手套来取暖，手套何尝不需要人们来取暖？。

手套会希望人们穿上手套出门，可是人们突然天天带着同样的手套，那会怎么办？

手套或许也喜欢天天跟着主人，但是如果手套不喜欢呢？

所以当手套与我之间的用途变质后，我会渐渐地把手套疏远，然后把它拍卖在EBAY上，让手套可以寻找一个更适合它的主人。

这是一种逃避方法。因为我不敢问手套它到底在想什么。因为主人觉得手套没有可能会喜欢上自己。

或者如果手套能够开口说话，那么事情就更容易解决了。

但是这只是一厢情愿吧了。因为手套根本就不懂主人在想什么。。。

2007-09-12T00:51:00.000+08:00

200+ applications
one interview
61 successful
19 singaporeans
AIESEC 07/08

2007-09-03T23:51:00.000+08:00

hai. so what if i can run below 8mins for 2.4km, do 20plus pull ups, 60plus seatups in a min, jump 250++cm for sbj and run 9.2s for shuttlerun.
All these are in the past. Evolving or degenrating from a sportsman to a club person. A club person is someone who dont do sports and just organise events and stuff. Oh moi god, what has happen to the ex cross country runner who can run like 100km per week, doing 2 sets of 2.4 km under 10mins consecutively or perhaps run 21km in one short for trainings. One of the regrets in my life is the failure to get a 6 packed abs. I can't believed it, they say running a lot will train you to get 6 abs, but how come i dun have ah.. i caught a glimpse of 6 abs forming during my army days, but after passing out, due to a slack unit i dont have the motivation to train it. Now i really wanna spend that few hundred dollars just to get the tummi trif device or pills so that my abs could be easily obtained without any vigorous exercise... Wahah... I always procasinate about training, or rather getting my fitness back. I lack a motivation though. In the army there's the award of a best pt, hence i trained for and eventually clinched it without competition. However, now in ntu, there's no money or regonition for just running fast? perhaps for the $400 army gave out... I feel like running again... but then i lack a training partner. I want to run for leisure no competitively. I like the feeling of running long hours without feelig tired, perhaps a best picture would be a guy running towards a long neverending road where in front of him is a picture of the deep blue sky that keeps him going on and on. Oh, i want to train but i need a training partner... argh how to find one... It's like so many focus and priorities in life. ah it's just excuses... i think i need someone to discipline me, that explains why without a training partner i wouldn't want to train alone... tsk tsk tsk...

2007-09-01T23:14:00.000+08:00

am i ready to lead? i have always been asking myself this question for ages. I believe leadership is inherent, everyone has leadership qualities in them, but to lead people and to achieve positive results is hard. I have always been a lazy kind of person in life. Considering myself 'selfish' bah, i will only spearhead a project if there aren't anyone volunteering themselves. I believe that if people want to lead the group or has the desire to lead the group in accomplishing task, i would not hesistate in giving up my chance of vying for leadership. The reasons are probably because i am giving other people a chance to show their leadership instead. However, deep down inside i think it's because i am rather a laidback person or perhaps i don't wanna take responsibility. Afterall, a group's success or failure depends on the leader itself. Hmm, perhaps the time that i actually step up and lead a group to do things was probably organizing class chalets or activities. It seemed that i wanted to organise something is because of lack of volunteer and actually there is motivation for me to do something for the class. So basically, for me to take up a leadership role, 1st, noone wants to be the leader, second, the agenda of the group must be of an interest to me... This seems like a selfish nature of my part, haiz, afterall it's about consequences of undertaking a project to guide it to a failure or success.

Joining AIESEC is certainly a breakthrough in my life. This is because not only i will be forced to lead, but i will be trained to be very vocal and expressive. I seldom speak out because i always consider about the opinions of others like this guy being too critical and stuff, or suggest too many opinions gives the idea that the person is very authoritative, or simply speaking not to put down on people cos not many people like the idea of constructive critism... Undertaking various projects, expanding my socal network, improving communication skills and to talk in front of the crowd in a conference are certainly challenges in life. Such experience are a criteria in working life after graduation and that's partly the reason why i joined this cca. It's about changing one's perspective and knowing more friends, planning events and working in a group to accomplish something.

However, i am still half hearted of the unknown... Because i do not know whether will i fall in the presence of difficulties, will success bestowed to me after all the effort i put in? will i be a better person? am i capable enough to prove to oneself that i could be a leader afterall... Perhaps perhaps a judgement could be made after i go through more inuctions and the jump start camp next week... perhaps i will turn out to be a better person instead? lol

2007-08-27T23:34:00.000+08:00

freaking pissed. i am surrounded by people who don't really play sports. I can't believe it. Engineers who don't do sports. Engineers are like the nerdiest of all kinds. How i wished i could dragged all my bball khakis to ntu, all my soccer khakis to ntu, whatever. looking forward to MSE ISG, where at least i can dun worry about other team members; just signed up and have fun!

2007-08-23T22:53:00.000+08:00

Monday - tuition
Tuesday - Squash 630 to 9pm...
Wednesday - Catered for CCA
Thursday - Tuition
Friday - Hip Hop Class

CCA :

Investment Sub Com Financial Events
AIESEC - pending interview results
MSE club - Either Biz mag sub com or sports/recrea sub com or GL ?
Violin - shld have no time for that...

2007-08-16T20:44:00.000+08:00

School is much more slack for me.
Decided to join a CCA finally.
Wanted to join boardgame club though but it falls on a thursday which happens to be my appointment with my tutee.
Astrology club? watch the stars? too late lah. I stay in toa payoh.
Investment club? seems like another lecture. Most probably it would be tons of pple listening to guest speakers. That's like so kinda boring.
I want to join a CCA that's fun or rathersporty.
AISEC - something about leadership guess i would try to submit my application in and wait for the interview. See how bah..
VIOLIN - yes i am going to learn te violin $8 an hour is a steal compared to yamaho who charges $40 per hour.
Here's something fun

2007-08-10T20:14:00.000+08:00

laptop down. cannot blog. nothing to blog.

hall 14 camp - one word politics.

bought my textbooks. - want to start studying actually.

sat - grover outing
sun - jc outing

2007-07-29T22:17:00.000+08:00

I can't wait for school to start!

Why? because...

1. i have a very good planned timetable
2. enrolled into a course where all the china peeps have vanished
3. Can't really wait to learn new interesting stuff
4. Wanna join a fun n interesting CCA at last!
5. there are new juniors in the school!

2007-07-26T01:07:00.000+08:00

That's what i have been waiting for...

2007-07-23T22:15:00.000+08:00

ok lah i think's sometimes gossips are a way to reieve stress!

2007-07-23T20:26:00.000+08:00

下雨了 !
一個不平凡的故事
發生在雨季
述說著在你我之間可能發生平凡的事
一個倆小無猜的愛慕
隱藏在兩個人心中無限的深埋
一場車禍
她到了未來
瞭解了未來可能發生的一切
回到了現實生活
她願意用短暫的生命做為賭注 -- 愛她所愛
在他由一片光明走向平庸
她甘願放棄自己的前途
只為了一個平凡的生活
短暫而平凡的幸福而努力
勇敢. 堅毅.細心經營呵護
平凡的幸福因此而非凡了起來
雖然它發生在雨季,也在雨季結束

在這個千萬人的城市裡
有千萬個故事在不斷地在你我之間發生
陪我們一起感動
你的故事也是我的悸動
在你的心酸讓我偷倒一滴蜂蜜
天雨了 !煩悶嗎 ?滌地淨塵潤你心
企盼借著雨點清澈你遠離煩憂我也借著雨點祝福你悅心笑燦

i am so freaking sloww..... to almost completely giving this show a miss...

Yes i hope fairy tales do exist.

something random; today stationery shopping was fun! I got a new pencil box and new pens!!!

bought shirts; now searching for jackets!

2007-07-22T10:40:00.000+08:00

Some pics from joker insinyur

Zidane 07/08

Things i wanna buy before GSS is over...

Erm which is today? =P

1. adiddas jacket
2. a watch
3. shoes
4. shirts/T shirts
5. a crumpler bag
6. pencil box/ stationery

2007-07-13T20:54:00.000+08:00

i am contemplating...

There is approx $800 per month for me if i give up my weekends to work part time.

will this affect my studies?

$800 per month x 12 is like a wooping $9600?

hmm what do i usually do on weekends? slack? watch tv? net surfying and perhaps doing tutorials?

argh i duno.

i just need to know what course i get into 1st before making any desicion...

2007-07-13T20:05:00.000+08:00

I have somehow mapped out my route of advancement till my graduation in year 4.

There is a fixed situation where if i get into MSE and if i remained in MPE(design).

When i am in mse - it will be work and travel usa 2007/2008 for the june hols then exchange programmes for either yr 2 sem 2 or yr 3 sem 1 then IA then FYP and graduate.

When i am in MPE - it will be EID for 5 weeks for the june hols then perhaps a part time job in one of the accounting big 4s which i have yet to email then exchange programme then IA then FYP.

That's the assumption that my grades are enough for exchange.

My boss once said that if an engineer never go to japan or germany or usa for attachment/experience he see you no up!

2007-07-05T00:32:00.000+08:00

going to bintan. shall update with pics!

2007-06-30T11:26:00.001+08:00

2007-06-21T15:40:00.000+08:00

2007-06-16T01:43:00.000+08:00

Behold the 6 of us,- sengwei, before ronnie flying off.
a year ago, where the 7 of us were still freshmen from army, kc going to monash, sengwei going to tasmania and ronnie going to hongkong.
time do flies, and i cherish the mahjong/prata sessions we had.

Miss you ronnie. Bon voyage!

2007-06-09T23:48:00.000+08:00

i hope my wish will come true! waitng...

2007-06-04T00:56:00.000+08:00

A Picture speaks a thousand words.
4 days of hard work = a team of fujitsu promoters.
Back : Jason, Yongming, Eric, junia
Middle : Lifang, Wan feng, Jessica, Jiunn Yeong, Huihong
Front : Me, Fabian, Daniel
Exclude : Mengqi, Justin, Ken, Kelvin, Shirley, Dave, Jackson, Lucas and Mr Lee.

2007-05-30T00:24:00.000+08:00

working at suntec pc fair. come to fujitsu booth! come buy tablet pc!!!

2007-05-23T20:34:00.000+08:00

Update Update! Work been very slack. It's always bridge, sleeping and exploring places for lunch. Tried the fastfood outlets at Raffles place. Bk, Pizzahut, KFC, Macdonalds. Walked around Raffles One upteen times... Polar, guardian, Watson, tcc, etc etc. Very sad that it's gonna be over. Work been progressing too fast thus expected retrenchment date is 2nd week of June and planning to leave names at job agencies. Gonna miss the collegues, fun and laughter we shared. June 08. That's results released day! yeah. hope it will not be a disappointment.

2007-05-12T14:36:00.000+08:00

life's been routine. pay day is June 25. which means i am broke from today till june 25. everyday is a routine, the only thing out of routine is lunch time where we choose which delicacies to savour. amoy's food is not bad though. It's through this bunch of collegues that i have learned to appreciate food much more. Lol. i can now understand why when pple start to work, one would pursue the quality of food. The reason i can thin of it that it's only during lunch and dinner that we can escape our mundane lifestyle of doing work. so in order to treat ourselves for working so hard we have to eat good food! waha. anyway there's the godlike wanton mee for $3 and big delicious fishball at $2.50, yu pian tang with rice is a treat with lots of yu pian and the tastry fried carrot cake. A guide to good food, Just see which queue is the longest and just queue behind them... waha of course that takes a lot of time too. learned about the system in amoy market, sometimes a packet of tissue, a brochure indicates that the person has reserved the seat. one tissue on one chair means on person sitting on the chair, a tissue on one third of the table of 6 chairs means 2 seats taken up and of course tissues on the table meant that the whole table is reserved. very interesting culture. The milk shakes at amoy are incredibly nice and tasty, ranging from avogado's milkshake to durian milkshake. some tasty milkshakes which i tried were durian, orange, honeydew, strawberry, and watermelon... shall try somemore than. Well if we have time we would tour around raffles place, we went to old changkee, subway that area and of course lots of office ladies, some are older than us and some are temps like us. It's quite a close knitted environment cos pple around that area really have impression of others. like who see who before blah blah. and of course information is dissipated at such alarming speed! like which pretty girl sits at the desk 2 tables away in the coy and which handome guy arrived in the office. There's an intensive communication network within companies in raffles place strung together to update the latest news and gossips... Enter the area of businss and accounting, i wonder do engineers like me get to work in raffles place? i doubt so... Anyway my job scobe is quite simple, we are just given a room, 5 temps in the room sorting out cashcards from boxes and putting them into cardholders then repack them into boxes. an air conditioned room plus we are given chairs to seat. It's quite a boring job but well there's always my lappie and radios to watch/listen. Nowaday;s it's about watching 4 movies well packing cashcards. Quite slack and the pay is $6.50 per hour. Cool. with my new collegues i learned more about finding jobs and knowing new people... Well basically i have yet to venture into the realm of sales, it fairs, promoters, telemarketing and customer service. My collegues been doing it fairs for some time and it fairs can really earn lots of $$, but then it comes down to the point of getting customers to close a deal with you, imagine spending 1 hour toking to a customer but yr customer buys from another collegue, this meant that yr comission just flew away... It fair @ may 31st, adecco doesn;t have any lobangs, but i think recruit express and HR are agencies that deals with such it fairs, thus think i will leave my name there. SITEX 2007 think will be working there ba... December thinking of working in a bank too, which means guixiong's connection comes into place. I think i enjoy work nowadays, afterall my job is slack and who gets to watch movies, tok cock and do work at the same time? Just hope that my boss doesn;t read my blog. whahahah

2007-05-12T14:35:00.001+08:00

Your Love Style is Eros

For you, love is all about the passion!
And chances are, you're currently in love.
You have a strong physical response to love...
And you are great at committing
(As long as the person makes your toes curl!)

What's Your Love Style?

that's total bullshit.

2007-05-05T12:54:00.000+08:00

$ woes.

1. braces $4000
2. shoes $70
3. hk trip $1000
4. apple ipod $500
5. wallet $40

for the time being.

2007-05-04T23:22:00.000+08:00

Update on my life...

26/04/07 - exams over, trying to transport all my stuff from hostel to home
27/04/07 - went to starhub building to look for job, search for jobs.
28/04/07 - eat, sleep, slack, surf net.
29/04/07 - eat, sleep, slack, surf net.
30/04/07 - job interview at singtel, confirmed job.
01/05/07 - eat, sleep, slack, surf net.
02/05/07 - work
03/05/07 - work, atw outing.
04/05/07 - work, aisl outing.
05/05/07 - cathigh reunion.
06/05/07 - bball.
07/05/07 - work, bbq at andy's place...

2007-05-02T23:05:00.000+08:00

Dear S/3SG TEO SHI YU KENVIN

ARMOUR ROAD RELAY '07

Greetings!.

Congratulations. You have been selected to represent the 62 SAB Team for this year's Armour Road Relay.

.

- wtf man. i havn't been really training and shaping up for these past few years... and to think that my 1st reservist callup is to run???? !!@!^@$%^$^@!

sighz... got to start training. but how... no motivation. no discipline... and no $$ even if we win... god damn it...

2007-04-30T17:01:00.000+08:00

桃花坞里桃花庵，桃花庵里桃花仙；桃花仙人种桃树，又摘桃花换酒钱。酒醒只在花前坐，酒醉还来花下眠；半醒半睡日复日，花落花开年复年。但愿老死花酒间，不愿鞠躬车马前；车尘马足贵者趣，酒盏花枝贫者缘。
若将富贵比贫贱，一在平地一在天；若将贫贱比车马，他得驰骋我得闲。别人笑我太峰巅，我笑他人看不穿；不见五陵豪杰墓，无花无酒耕作田。

2007-04-27T21:38:00.000+08:00

the 3 on my lappie is spoilt. darn.

good news : exams over!
bad news : time to look for a job.

sheesh when will this cycle end?

2007-04-22T15:33:00.000+08:00

It's raining heavily in the streets.

Guy and Girl were on the street, drenched.

Girl was holding a jacket trying to shelter her from the rain.
Girl: "What?"
Guy: " I love you."
Girl: "Ooh I Love you too.", and she turns away trying to hail a cab
Guy: "I wanna tell you why I love you."
Girl: "It's... It's raining, you know that right.", again she turns and tries to hail a cab.
Guy: ""I have to tell you this and you need to hear it."
Girl turns around and wait for the guy to speak.
Guy:
"I loved you since I met you, but I wouldn't allow myself to truly feel it until today."
"I was always thinking ahead, making decisions soaked with fear..."
"Today, because of you... what I learned from you; every choice I made was different and my life has completely changed..."
"and I've learned that if you do that, then you're living your life fully..."
"It doesn't matter if you have five minutes or fifty years."
"If not for today, if not for you I would never have known love at all..."
"So thank you for being the person who taught me to love..."
"and to be love."
Girl: "I don't know what to say."
Guy: "You don't have to say anything... I just wanted to tell you."
Girl: "Thank you."
The cab arrives and she gets into the cab.
Girl: "Are you coming?"
Guy hesitates for a moment, he knew what was impending and finally made a choice.
Guy: "Yes of course."
The cab stops at a junction in the middle of a downpour.

"wham"

A car just rammed into the stationary cab.

Girl: " Why am i here and he isn't... He had a premonition, and he tried to tell me but i din believe him... Right before he got into the cab, he told me how i taught him to love. Loving him was so easy for me... but he just wanted to say everything..."
and she sobs...

only the girl survived...

Every now and then when it's raining, i just felt like watching this movie, this particular scence, and hear this particular conversation again.
It's a heartwrenching moment, the feeling of not cherishing the loved ones around you and by the time you losed them, it's too late to feel anything.
Raining almost everyday... How cosy to sleep...

2007-04-19T19:44:00.000+08:00

Redefined goals.

work towards it.

effort quivalent to result. that's what i always believe in.

you want the cash, go earn it yrself.

you want to do well in studies, put in effort in studying.

if you want to slack ? how?

wahahaha

2007-04-19T17:48:00.000+08:00

Get to know yourself better
Your view on yourself:

You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?
Your views on education

You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.
The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.
What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.
Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

2007-04-13T10:56:00.000+08:00

What is the pursuit of happiness?

Currently i dun feel happy studying. i mean who really feels happy about studying? I feel that learning is a slow process and studying just to score for exams are redundant. I mean why must an examination force you to regurgitate out what you have been taught to learn, and then based on what you learned, assess you and compared it with other individuals. Perhaps it's how the society distinguishes between the one who can really memorise the text. and perhaps it's this gauge which determines how much you earned in the future? cos the logic is the more you can memorise, the more you can concur to the examinations papers set by someone else. It's like a situation of just trying to blend into a group of knowledge freaks... hmm... pardon me if i am wrong. That's like how sad, but society is like that.

Sheesh, i know deep down inside i am a slacker. a 100% slacker who only likes to eat, sleep and watc tv. This society judges by how much u can earned, and the norm is that if you got a degree, you will be able to earn a little bit more than others... Down to the main point, studying is just for the gain of individual's knowledge? then why must we be forced to prove ourselves to others? or studying is just to get a blardee job and earn some cash. Perhaps and perhaps, the best solution of all is to be rich and yeah... how to be rich?

study lor!

%^@$%^$%#@^%

2007-04-12T14:40:00.000+08:00

Wish list for the next few years
1. get selected for the USA work and travel scheme.
2. INSTEPS?
3. GIP?
4. Overseas Attachment.
5. Hongkong.
6. Eurotrip. (graduation)

seems like i need to earn the cash for such treats.

darn.

2007-04-05T19:16:00.000+08:00

Just watched If only. well a film that deals with a time loop. What if only you knew that what is going to happen in 24hours time and that you only have one day to make your choice. Somewhat similiar to groundhog day but in groundhog day, the male protagonist got to relive his day 365 times x 10 years. That's 3650 time before his time loop disappears. In If only, the male protagonist only has 1 time to so call put things right. Oh well, it's not a comedy. hint* get ready your tissues.
Here are the 2 songs from the flim... btw Rise of Taj + harold and kumar goes to white castle are indeed retail therapy for the upcoming exams...

Take my heart back lyrics.

It'll be alright
You said
Tommorrow
Don't you cry
Don't you shed a tear
When you wake up
I will still be here
When you wake up
We'll battle all your fears
And now I'll...

Take my heart back
Leave your pictures on the floor
Steal back my memories
I can't take it anymore
I've cried my eyes out
Oh,and now I face the years
The way you loved me
Vanished all the tears

Just a little more time was all we needed
Just a little time for me to see
Oh,the light that life can give you
Oh,how we get such a free
So now I'll...

Take my heart back
Leave your pictures on the floor
Steal back my memories
I can't take it anymore
I've cried my eyes out
Oh,and now I face the years
The way you loved me
Vanished all the tear

Love will show you everything

Today, today I bet my life
You have no idea
What I feel inside
Don't, be afraid to let it show
For you'll never know
If you let it hide

I love you
You love me
Take this gift and don't ask why
Cause if you will let me
I'll take what scares you
Hold it deep inside
And if you ask me why I'm with you
And why I'll never
Leave
Love will show you everything

One day
When youth is just a memory
I know you'll be standing right next to me

I love you
You love me
Take this gift and don't ask why
Cause if you will let me
I'll take what scares you
Hold it deep inside
And if you ask me why I'm with you
And why I'll never
Leave
My love will show you everything
My love will show you everything
My love will show you everything
My love will show you everything

2007-04-05T11:45:00.000+08:00

been sick-ed from yesterday.

in order to be able to study, one must have a healthy body 1st.

few more days to exams.

stressed.

2007-03-29T18:58:00.000+08:00

i cant blog at home or in my room. wierd. internet connection is a bit wierd for my lappie. think got too much stuff. so shall only blog in the lib.

mugging season has arrived...

enuff said.

2007-03-22T02:20:00.001+08:00

You are a Benevolent Idealist.
personalDNA
about you
You are an Idealist

As an IDEALIST, you are distinctive for your integration of confidence, imagination, willingness to explore, and desire for competence over style.

You have a strong capacity to comprehend the inner workings of things, finding new ideas and innovative insights to feed your curious nature.

You are quite comfortable in the realm of abstract thought. You don't need a practical solution to every one of life's questions.

You are comfortable with the decisions you make in life. You don't need to second-guess yourself, or seek a lot of opinions before you make up your mind.

You enjoy the routines that you have created in your life, and don't feel the need to shake things up just for the sake of change.

You generally succeed at what you do, and others would describe you as successful.

It is important to you that products be efficient – looking good has to come second to working well.

You aren't the kind of person who needs to collect stylish items in an attempt to create an attractive environment – you know that what matters most is function, not style.

You prefer to have time to plan for things, feeling better with a schedule than with keeping plans up in the air until the last minute.

You do your own thing when it comes to clothing, guided more by practical concerns than by other people's notions of style.

If you want to be different:

You take time to explore your own thoughts and ideas, but this experience would only be heightened if you opened yourself up even more to others' ideas.

Your faith in yourself and your lifestyle is well-founded, but the occasional foray into the unknown might broaden your perspective and help you see things differently.

how you relate to others
You are Benevolent

You are a great person to interact with—understanding, giving, and trusting—in a word, BENEVOLENT

You don't mind being in social situations, as you feel comfortable enough with people to be yourself.

Your caring nature goes beyond a basic concern: you take the time to understand the nuances of people's situations before passing any sort of judgment.

You're a good listener, and even better at offering advice.

You're concerned with others at both an individual and societal level—you sympathize with the plights of troubled groups, and you can care about people you've never met.

Considering many different perspectives is something at which you excel, and you appreciate that quality in others.

Other people's feelings are important to you, and you're good at mediating disputes.

Because of your understanding and patience, you tend to bring out the best in people.

You prefer to have time to plan for things, feeling better with a schedule than with keeping plans up in the air until the last minute.

You do your own thing when it comes to clothing, guided more by practical concerns than by other people's notions of style.

If you want to be different:

You spend a lot of time taking care of others, but don't forget to take care of yourself!

Sometimes you can get overcommitted, and when you sacrifice spending time with those close to you, it can make them feel unimportant.

2007-03-22T01:47:00.000+08:00

march 21 - my bdae.
oh well, i think i ate something wrong today.
morning was a cup of mash potato from 7-11, noon was rice with toufu, potato, fish and cabbage, dinner was chicken mutarbak and an egg prata. One of this combination is lethal to my stomach...
It's not a simple stomachache where i could just rush to the gents to solve the problem...
It's more like lots of flatulence in the stomach, and somehow or rather my stomach feels like a blown up balloon. a pregnant lady? i thot it was gastric but then i ate my meals regularly, how do i explain this ..? wierd. and it seems sleeping somehow or rather lessen the pain but once i woke up i can feel it again. well perhaps the most appropriate scenario to describe it as a female having cramps... my god. my 22nd birthday is indeed filled with so much agony... arghh damn it...
received lots of bday wishes while i was sleeping... oh well...
around 20plus still remember my bday bah... bday to me actually dont count as a great significance to me nowadays... perhaps i have come to a stage that everyday is my bday or rather my actual birth date is slightly a bit of a significance compared to some other days? a bit of depressing tone here cos my i am still having some nasty stomach upset.... grrrrrrr
hope that i feel better tomorrow..

2007-03-18T01:22:00.000+08:00

the gers

yee rae and irene

sports queen

one table ?

the guys

gro0ver outing, so long hen post

2007-03-11T23:53:00.000+08:00

down with flu cos i just went to the storeroom and search for my reservist stuff.

my nose is ultra sensitive to dust, and now it spoils my day...

anyway chanced upon many other blogs who write so beautifully... kinda attracted to such style of writings because 1st, my writings sux and well abstract new words that never existed in my vocabulary seems so appealing.

every week kinda is so routine. just doing tutorials, waiting for exams, then waiting for exams to be over, then waiting for holidays, then waiting for holidays to over. my god it's a cycle, not anticipating anything...

anyway i kinda feel sad for my room. it seems totally unfit for 2 guys to live in. it's not a room. everywhere is dust... except my bed though... i think the cleanest thing in my room is my bed. cos if it's not clean i would be sneezing everytime i sleep... =P. my floor is ermm lack of sweeping and moppin and well papers are flying around as usual, bags are misplaced, and i mean a lot of bags. plastic bags, paper bags... shoe bags, school bags, ziplock bags, sling bags, u get the idea...

argh... cant really invite anyone into my room... so pls dun ever ask me to let u all into my room. cos erm it's too dirty. whahahaaaaa..

2007-03-07T21:38:00.000+08:00

I'm such a nice person who lends my handphone to perfect strangers.

latest incident happen in ntu campus when an old man drove behind me, honk at me and ask me to lend him my handphone so he could call his daughter.

Well being respectful to elders, i just lend him my handphone, and what happened later on was his handphone rang... %#@^$&^#%&^% It seems that he's trying to be so niao and stingy here. felt quite cheated and just shrugged it off. I thot such cheapos are extinct in singapore. Yet someone just popped out of nowhere.

I'm still suffering from recess week syndrome. cant get back to work...

2007-03-03T02:55:00.000+08:00

haiz i think i have something wrong with money.

although i yearn to earn money but aint really prepared to sacrifice my time to work for it.

it's not that i am lazy.

it's just the mindset i am having now.

feel that once i stepped into the society to earn some cash makes me kinda stepping into the adult world.

don't talk about the temp jobs i done... those temp jobs are just a de guo qie guo thing... my last job was actually becos pple have been doing jobs so i just got a job, if have a choice i would just slack at home.

It's the same with driving license. i took my basic theory at the age of 18. but postpone it till 2 years later then i got my license. and it was becos frens around me have been getting their license, that's y i go n take it.

Seriously i lack a motivation or a goal now... thus have nothing to work for it.

i am a person who sets targets and achieve them.

i set my sight to become armour best pt. yeah at the end of the course, yah armour pest pt 2004.
i set to get into the school team for xcountry and yes i got into the team.

Although it would be good to set a target of earning 10000 at the end of the year, but i dun wnana set this goal becos i am a person which feels that once i decide on something i would work for it.... however i feel that my current life now is good. enough cash to go on for the time being and can focus on studying. however IT is always good to have more money... sheesh.

there's a major flaw in my mindset. It's because of this mindset that i din touch final fantasy 12. my reason for that is because if i will to play that game, i will be completely glue to the game, exploring every hidden stages and collect every single items which takes up lots of my time which is equivalent to time being spend on other stuff.

yah i am simple minded, i cant multi task... so it's quite sad that my life is so one way...

and yes i dun even know what i wanna be now. currently engineering is the course i am studying, but i have the options to go into business, and even to other streams of engineering. however i dun even know what i wanna be... as what i told EEFAI, i just wnana slack at home n shake leg and money comes in. darn...

sheesh... at the end of this sem, it's time to make a choice and set new targets...

YEAR 1 was meant to be getting good grades managing studies, hence i put studies at my 1st priority.
perhaps YEAR 2 i shall be more involved in earning money? hmm....

2007-02-27T21:49:00.000+08:00

too busy watching heores(up to episode 16) and team medical dragon plus trying to study = not blogging. haha

2007-02-27T18:30:00.000+08:00

Aesthetic

Longing for you
day and in dream
i'm hoping you're here
and leading my way
You steers my road
anytime i need
If you walk away
I will follow you
Trying my life
with your sacred gifts you gave to me
I won't vain
and succeed it as your precious soul
Holding your hand
and i'm walking through the all of the world
carrying your wish
like the Venus in the dim sky

2007-02-15T19:07:00.000+08:00

就说个水和鱼的故事吧...

“有条小溪里不知什么时候多了条可爱的鱼儿。就像眼前的这一弯溪水。”

“有一天，这只可爱的鱼爱上了小溪里的水。她鼓足勇气告诉了它。水沉默良久，才回答她道，妈妈说鱼儿不能爱水这是大自然的规律，就好像斑马只能爱斑马，花豹只能爱花豹；条纹的只能爱条纹，斑点的又只能爱斑点，而斑点却是永远不能爱条纹的。”

“鱼儿不明白，她吐着泡泡对水说：‘爱你！’水再次沉寂，鱼儿没有再说什么，只是静静地躺在了水的怀里…………许久，鱼儿的开口打破了沉寂：‘看不见我眼中的泪，因为我在水中。’水说：‘能感觉到你的泪，因为你在我心中。’”

"水终于挣不脱命运的枷锁，流入了大江，鱼一直陪着他，两人相拥着饶过暗礁和险涛，流过江湖，跃下瀑布，最后水流越流越暖，最后竟快断流了！“太好了，我们终于可以定居了。”鱼儿欢呼雀跃。“不行，水面太浅，太危险了，乘现在还有退路，你赶快往回游吧！”水儿紧张地说。“不，不管怎样，我决不离开你！”,
鱼儿坚决地说。为了减少水的蒸发量，白天，鱼儿静静地躺在水的怀里，不作任何运动。到了夜里，星星全落到了水里，鱼儿才开始嬉戏，把星星一颗颗吞进去，又吐出来，再吞进去，再吐出来，乐此不疲。六月，火红的太阳照射着水面，尽管他们做了各种努力，可水儿还是在一点一点的蒸发。鱼儿的脊背渐渐地露出了水面，水儿努力地激起了波澜，湿润着她的脊背，不让太阳将她灼伤。可是这样，更加加速了水的蒸发。终于，最后的一滴水也离开了鱼儿。鱼儿躺在了龟裂的土地上，奄奄一息。鱼儿的心脏在完成了最后一次跳动时，一滴眼泪从脸颊滑落。”

“梦里——

鱼说：你看不见我眼中的泪，因为我在水中。

水说：我能感觉到你的泪，因为你在我心中

鱼对水说：一辈子不能出去看看外面的世界，是我最大的遗憾！

水说：一辈子不能打消你的这个念头，是我最大的失败！

鱼对水说：在你的一生中，我是第几条鱼？

水说：你不是在水中的第一条鱼，可却是我心中的第一条。”

2007-02-11T21:33:00.000+08:00

Cute, neither Dark nor Light, and Stylish, you'll find the Debutante at high-class New York parties, making the rounds. She'll have a glass of champagne in one gloved hand, her hair perfectly coifed, her makeup exactingly applied. Her slinky, perfect little black dress keeps many an eye firmly on her, wondering what lies beneath.

my 2nd time

2007-02-11T00:24:00.001+08:00

Horny. Stubborn. Kinda cute. Slightly immature. And often found on rough terrain. You are The Billy Goat.

You're lusty, but typically monogamous, and all in all you're a pretty good boyfriend. In fact, you enjoy relationships, if mostly for the sex and physical companionship. You'd do or say almost anything to get together with someone, but that's not necessarily a bad thing.

You're sensitive, you have a certain boyish charm, and you're eager. Therefore you probably attract girls who are serious about romance. But few who get close to you realize how unready for total commitment you are. People fall for you. Meanwhile, you maintain your emotional distance, and there goes another box of tissues.

Your exact opposite:
The Loverboy

Random Gentle Love Master

You're perfectly capable of a long-haul relationship, but, right now, dating someone primarily means having a consistent, available, preferably not-too-chatty, hookup. You're a careful, methodical person, and you work hard at making things work. It's just that the type of woman most likely to find your strengths endearing is also the most likely type to find your shortcomings heartbreaking. Someone with a similarly laid-back approach to dating would be perfect for you.

2007-02-11T00:16:00.000+08:00

Lusty but indirect. Kind, but also using friendship as a means to sex. Oh, that feels gooood. You are The Backrubber.

We call you "The Backrubber" because you straddle that fine line between coming on to someone and just treating her nicely. Backrubs are just one example; you'd meet for coffee, or talk about books/movies, or even argue a little bit, all the while mostly preferring to screw.

Your exact opposite:
The Vapor Trail

Random Brutal Love Master

Your indirect approach is not some evil trickery, but rather a result of your open mind. You'd enjoy either love or sex, but the latter definitely doesn't require the former. While you are responsible and ambitious, you absolutely DON'T have uptight views on relationships. So ultimately, you just enjoy a woman, and let things take their course. If she wants you, great. If not, that's fine too.

Though you're not thinking too much about Love at this point in your life, odds are, when the time comes, you'll be very happy settling down. Your ideal mate is gentle and horny, just like you

2007-02-11T00:07:00.001+08:00

ALWAYS AVOID: The Peach

CONSIDER: The Playstation

Link: The 32-Type Dating Test by OkCupid - Free Online Dating.
My profile name: aeious

2007-02-08T17:17:00.000+08:00

i just learned some phrases new.
"suki desu, suki yatte kudasai"
ha, sooo interesting

2007-02-08T17:03:00.000+08:00

currently i am being tortured by a sudden crisis in my university life.
I cant eat sleep play or do my tutorials if this issue is not settled.
I have submitted an appeal online and if this succeeds, i will be certainly leading a way much more easier life and things would go according to my plan.
Now i am afraid that my appeal would be unsuccessful.
Darn...
Really regretted making some unsound decisions if i could forsee the problems ahead.
Don't ask me what it is cos the thot of the unknown appeal results are still not released and i have no mood to talk about it.
Regardless of what, the person whom answered my call is a bitch, telling me that i must submit my appeal online where the website says that online appeals are to help cut down the hassle of submitting appeal personally.
Spoils my mood. i cant really wait to spend my weekend.
Friday - farewell dinner with jerry
Sat - sending off of jerry
Sun - bball.
and in the meantime, prepare for sex and death and society processes quiz plus material science quiz. Read up on viruses for lifescience. Do maths tutorial 3. and then further readig on physics.
oh boy...
please give me some good news...

2007-02-05T00:24:00.000+08:00

no wonder they say uni life is most fun and least stressful time of our life... they as in referring to our teachers who taught us.

why leh, cos the nie pple only have like 8aus for a sem? darnx!

recess is coming again in like barely 3 weeks and then i can say that time passes quite fast indeed! i never knew time could just slip by so easily (although i knew, wth that was redundant), but to be able in the process of knowing time is slipping by so fast and yet you can do nothing about it is so intriguing...

Targets for this weekend was never completed.

Material science 8 chapters. - covered 5.
Maths lectures 4 - covered 3.
din touch physics; din touch accounting.

what the hell did i do... i wonder...

2007-02-02T13:59:00.000+08:00

they say chuang ye nan shou ye gen nan. It's the same principle as making friends, but maintaining frenships is not an easy task.

Looking through photos taken, i realised i havn't been really a good fren...

Pri school frens, secondary school frens, jc frens, bmt mates, sispec mates, atw mates... really never been going out with them or catching up with them.

i missed my bmt mates. oh boy, we went in without knowing anything, helping one another, going thru the 3 months of training. everyone was so helpful and amiable. It was the most fun time of our life.

Sad to say, in my army life i think i know a lot of pple, but upon graduating from sispec, posted to armour, and then orded. it seems that now when i saw faces that seems farmiliar to me which i think i could have knew them during the army phase, i couldn't really remembered their names. Darn sad perhaps that's the cause of not keeping in touch...

hai...

2007-01-29T17:37:00.000+08:00

i cherish my newfound freedom.
3 days of not schooling.
suddenly i realise learning a new subject is soooo interesting.
Please let me catch up on my work beforei plan to go out.
*struggling hard so that he can afford to go out with his cat high khakis, mahjong sessions, bball sessions or whatsoever sessions...

2007-01-26T19:45:00.000+08:00

accounting jargons. headache...

very forgetful nowadays.

iglobal and INSTEPs. Eye opener. but for engine student have to wait for a year 1st.

sleeping at 1am everyday waking up at 730am = very frequent afternoon naps and the constant sneezing.

weekends are to rest, sleep and study.

2007-01-22T00:46:00.000+08:00

i feel that i tend to forget things quickly... or rather i dun really like to remember stuff.

just remember

what you dun want people to do to you, don't do it to others.

2007-01-13T23:51:00.001+08:00

歌曲：爱得太迟
歌手：古巨基/周慧敏专辑：human 我生

古巨基周慧敏-爱得太迟(合唱版)

男:我过去
抱紧她
早晚共对
到了扎职以后
自觉太累
而即使相约到
亦无言共对
疏淡如水
女:我过去
也只因
工作万岁
我爱侣极介意
跟他比对
而最怕再奋斗
做强人下去
有哪个能追

男:最心痛是
爱得太迟
女:有心倾诉
不可等某个日子
男:盲目地发奋
忙忙忙其实自私
合:梦中也习惯
有压力要我得志
女:谁会在意
谁会及时
男:只差一秒
心声都已变历史
合:忙极亦放肆
见我爱见的相知
要抱要吻要怎么也好
男:偏要推说等下一次

男:我最爱
等不到
早已别去
却发觉心太累
没有眼泪
穷一生
想再追
但难寻旧爱
都似独居
女:我也怕
习惯了
不靠伴侣
谁和谁又约我
一一婉拒
难碰上
我最爱
便独立下去
却怕有人催

男:错失太易
爱得太迟
女:怎么补救
心中的刺永在此
男:盲目地发奋
忙忙忙从来未知
合:幸福会掠过
再也没法说钟意
女:忘记上次
唯有及时
男:只差一秒
心声都已变历史
合:为何未放肆
见我爱见的相知
要抱要吻要怎么也好

男:不要相信一切有下次
女:珍惜我所爱又花几多秒
这几秒
男:能够做到又有多少
女:虽一秒
男:未算少
合:足够遗憾望掉

男:多少抱撼(女:不要)
多少过路人(女:抖震)
几多相爱
合:几多相处了又分
男:人人在发奋
想起他朝都兴奋
合:但今晚未过
我要过也很吸引
女:能吻便吻
谁也是人
男:理想很远
爱于咫尺却在等
合:来日别操心
趁我有能力相亲
世界有太多东西发生
男:不要等到天上拥吻
女:天空海阔谁与你俯瞰

2007-01-12T16:20:00.000+08:00

Your Birthdate: March 21

You are certain and confident when you choose to love someone.
Even though your romantic choices may be unconventional - you stand behind them.
Your friends never know you as well as a romantic partner does.

Number of True Loves You'll Have: 4

Number of Times You'll Have Your Heart Broken: 1

You are most compatible with people born on the 3rd, 12th, 21st, and 30th of the month.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean For Your Love Life?

2007-01-06T02:40:00.000+08:00

School's starting...

I ask my roomie in order to attain a GPA of 5.0 for this sem; what r u prepared to sacrifice?

To him his life now is split into 3 things; studies, dragonboat and luv.

well he is prepared to give up luv.

hmm what am i prepared to give up? do ideal situations exist?

2007-01-01T03:41:00.000+08:00

2007 is here.

A final recap on 2006.
I can only recollect some events which i still can rem clearly.

Jan 2006
- Tze wee's 21st bday
Feb 2006
- Kc's Departure to Aussieland.
Mar 2006
- Ord lor, steamboat dinner with atw mates
- Diving trip
- 21st bday celebration with Cat high; army mates.
- Jerry's 21st bday;
Apr; May; June 2006
- Weepoh's 21st bday
- working at IBM.
- Taiwan trip with cat high frens
July 2006
- Orientation camps; 3 weeks of boot camp
- Sending off Ronnie
Aug 2006
- start of university life
- studying
Sep 2006
- recess week
- 22 September 2006
Oct 2006
- struggling thru uni life
Nov 2006
- Jw's 21st bday
- exams
- mugging
- studying in the tutorial room
Dec 2006
- BBALL!!!
- IHG
- Meeting up with friends
- December 5th 1400
- December 13th 2230
- Mahjong
- Chalet with cathigh; cathigh bball gang;
- Xmas eve
- New year's eve

2006-12-30T01:42:00.000+08:00

i hope for school to reopen; cos i have targets to achieve, plans to fufil...

after slacking for so much, i really felt that although studying is a chore but at least it has a purpose in life; (just that i wished the lecturers will go on a slower pace.)

clubbing was never my cup of tea. I hate the sleezy atmosphere. Very duo4 luo4. And becos i dislike clubbing; naturally there's a resentment towards the gers who clubbed.

drinking; i dun drink beer; i dun drink alchohols; becos of the taste; well if u can mix well and mask the vodka taste; i could glupped it down...

girls; i am neutral to them; just that sometimes you yearned for an opposite sex for companionship cos u have been mixing around with guys for quite a while...

bball; the best sport ever; it strengthen ties with sec 1 mates; it is low cost; gives back high utils.

mahjong; zi moed my 1st 13 yao; expecting bad luck... soon...

results; disappointing; but encouraging; ah tiongs and dapao pls go away.

my hostel room; it seems so clean after a big da shao chu; nice environment to stay; still prefer tutorial rooms to wack tutorials.

friends; hi bye frens; funny frens; wierd frens...

i prefer to remain a low profile in uni; cos to be high profile; u have to do lots of stuff to let pple to know u; which is equal to lots of times wasted... Have a taste of being high profile in sec sch and jc; sick of forking too much time to do stuff. it's time to slack and i kinda enjoyed it.

Proposed plan for next sem; study; sleep afternoon nap; do tutorials; after tutorials; socialise; weekend; go out; spend time with frens and the cycle continues.

Lack of sleep = no interest in doing anything...

2006-12-28T11:39:00.000+08:00

Ok. 2nd lower; Next sem jia you lor.
hope to become Mr A.
Well results exceed my expectation of GPA 3.1.
The only result that is below my expectation is MATHS. Got B-. Expected B.
Nevertheless, crapping of effective com gives me A B.
As you guessed it all Bs...

and i think i just zi mo a shi san yao yesterday...

2006-12-27T01:32:00.000+08:00

so long never update.

It's bballing again when we have the chance. Yup; that's the activity that can gave you same or less than utils relatively spending time with yr gf. (oh no; i am starting to use stuff that i learnt in school; is this the 1st step to transform into an engineer?)

Christmas eve; watched night of the museum; eat tau hui; play pool; chit chat till 4am.

2 different human behaviour could be concluded after 4 hours of debating; arguments and chit chatting.

Type A : A guy would only take notice of a ger when the ger actually gave him hints or singals that she is actually interested in the guy; otherwise the guy only treat gers around him as his frens. This we call him Mr passive;
Passive guys are those who are so call bochup in a way; but when they are involved in a relationship; they would actually dote on their gf much more than others; more committed.

Type B : A guy who actually starts to do things to impress the gal which is a fren he likes; etc buy food; buy panadol etc; (this guy is totally opposite from the passive guy as passive guy only believes in doing such things to her gf instead of to a normal fren)
These guys know what type of gers they want and so called their way of spending of cash on gers e.g going out to watch a movie is considering chasing.

Dr huang and me belonged to type A while Charlie Choo belongs to type B. Quite true i think.

Next day 9pm was basketball again. 5 hours of sleep not enuff; but we had a fun time.
then went to kent ridge to help tze wee prepare his xmas day dinner. Quite fun; should have asked more pple to help.
The experience was precious; cos it was the 1st time when a guy goes into the kitchen and erm hmmm doesn't really know what he is doing...
some funny episodes; like grated cheese which is ya know the pizza type of cheese; so if we dun have grated cheese, we just use a knife to slice the whole slab of cheese into smaller bits. Using an egg beater to try to minced the sauages and bisquit flour; erm actually was supposed to use a mincer instead; so use knife to try to cut it as small as possible. Agaration in measuring out the amount of ingredients in the recipe and combining everything into a dish.

After 6; went for xmas partee! Oh Yah these xmas; i received lots of shirts; that saved my new year clothings bah. A total of 6 new shirts being given. Lol this remind me of the incident that charlie and i almost wore the same green shirt out on xmas eve, whaha luckily i changed my mind at the last minute if not is jitao sian diao.... After xmas partee was mahjong with cousin till 4plus am;then woke up around 3pm the next day.

26 boxing day was supposed t0 be going for delphi's xmas partee; erm i din have time to buy presents then plus it was raining and lack of sleep so in the end just didn't want to go; was feeling sick also; sneezing whole day. Watched 2 Japanese drama in a day.

I watched the jap version of meteor garden; darn nice and this shan cai was more better looking than DA S. I hate DA S; i dun think she's beautiful. wierd taste of pple. how come all those taiwanese drama must find her to act. Basically i think in MARS, DA S shouldn't act lor, so ugly. ZAI ZAI is quite cool in MARS; shuai in shen qing mi ma. Anyway meteor garden in jap somehow or rather reinstate my belief in loving someone. Yup when u love someone, you would do things unexpectedly, like dao ming si got wacked by others just to protect shan cai, when he gets jealous when hua ze lei and shan cai are together; when he pickes on her just becos he cares about her; and teach others a lesson when others insulted shan cai; all these small little things really reflect or indicates how one loves another. like for shancai to decides whether she loves hua ze lei or daomingsi; her indication was the person who she was thinking of in her mind when she's out doing something...

Next as some air stewardess show; quite nice; with shang hu cai acting as a rookie air stewardess, on the bloopers she made during her training and how she reacted during some unexpected situations.

Oh yah saw the inter jc pageant. F3 and F10 are my type of gals which i think is pretty lar; basically i think my expectations in gers are quite high and my range is quite big though. lol...

However one thing that certainly keeps me wondering about. My fren told me F3 is a mother; she gave birth to a child and still maintains her figure. 18 yrs old; an unwed mother. I wonder nowadays how many gers are actually considered virgins in this new era? Recent survey in NTU by hearsay i think from daren; NTU gers about 40% admitted into having sex before. it's like 1 out of 2 gers actually have sexual experience???

Let's face reality; guys really do care about a ger's virginity. Basically the model tys answer when a bf found out his gf is not a virgin; he would tell the gf that he don't mind as he only loves the girl. THis is just an assurance lah. It's crap which i believed. If i was in the same scenario; i really duno what to do lar, if i found out my gf is not a virgin; of course i mind lar but becos you love her too deeply to actually mind about her virginity but down inside of course u r affected. It's just like marginal benefit exceeds marginal cost. This statement doesn't really means there is absence of cost. So consumers actually has the burden of cost to handle with...
So don't name such guys as shallow or what; cos not many guys are god...
I wonder how many NTU gers are not virgins anymore...... rough estimation i think should be about 50% bah... sad to say; i would rather not know about it... so gers out there, it's best to lie to yr bf, actually not lie; is when u lie; u must make sure he NEVER finds out... or come clean with it; and just wait for time to heal...

LOl

2006-12-22T13:54:00.000+08:00

Christmas is coming....
It seems so wierd to be spending christmas at home.
However i really don't feel like asking anyone out to spend christmas with.
Why? cos there's no purpose in doing so...
as you aged, you would find that sometimes doing things alone is quite enjoyable.
Not so long ago, i went to popular alone, browsing through majority of the books there, spent some quality time reading, with solitude and peacefulness. I went walking around toa payoh central, seeing things, hearing things and just enjoy the stroll while the rain is pouring heavily.
Basically what i need is someone to enjoy this journey with me.
Someone who feels such trivial stuff aint wasting his/her times.
That's what good friends are for.
hOwever, how many good frens can one have in his or her lifetime?
Can all good frens of that person mixed together? i wonder....
Sometimes, 2 frens can have so much things to talk about, for etc on the train to boonlay; one could talk non stop to each other, and one could just go ahead and sleep without feeling tired. This is what i call good frens.
I doubt i am ever ready for a relationship; becos i fall in love too easily or rather i crushes pretty gers easily which in layman terms jw says xin shang. Yah i like to talk to pretty gers, go out with pretty gers, but only on the context of just having a pretty fren.
I still believed that i havn't met someone that my heart will skipped at 1st sight. Someone which i wanna talk to everyday; someone that i wanna know more about; someone that i have the urge to see everyday.
Guessed that i don't fall in love easily; or i crushes pple easily?
aye confused...
haha i am confused.
wat so ever.

2006-12-19T13:09:00.000+08:00

I forgot what i want to blog.
Oh yah.
I can't seem to understand how does japanese drama pictures life in the show to be so dreamy; romantic; or interesting.
A scene in the show could show an xmas lightings with pple crowding the street; just by watching it, you could actually feel the xmas spirit.
However back to reality, i went to town yesterday; the people; the mood; the atmosphere is totally different.
Xmas as proposed by weepoh is just another day where retail owners get to makes more money as usual on that day...
Yesterday i was pulled into the world of jdramas by a recent jdrama which i bought. The power of jdrama is that it totally brings u into the film and at times makes yr worries or whatsoeverdisappears.
I feel happy watching it and after the show finishes, i kinda felt dreaded to stumble back into the real world.
It's how interesting; lots of pple can do in the film, whilei am stuck at home doing nothing; plus the endless raining going on doesn't help.
Maybe i could emulate what melvin has been doing n teaching abt.
Go to frenster; find ntu gals, and go out with them; that's how spastic lah...
hai...

2006-12-16T22:27:00.000+08:00

What's life for me nowadays.
Life been pretty much the same. It's bball, bball and bball.
Cash issue hasn't been solved. Still looking for tutees. Anyone?
Plan an ideal time table, and it all boils down to results and the fastest fingers win!
Hope my GPA will be 3.5 and above - minimum expectation at least a 2nd lower. (wierd huh, expectation seems to drop every now and then from 1st class to 2nd upper to 2nd lower).
See is it possible to get a minor - (if my gpa was 4.0 i will if it was 3.9, i think i shall just skip the minor).
I'm still feeling quite sore about what had happend. As the saying goes xin ai de ren jie hun le, ke shi xin lang bu shi ni.
Is not there's no gan jue between the both of us, it's just that the timing is not rght and well there was too little iterest shown on my part.
I have a tendency to consider whether a relationship will work out before making a decision hence the delayed in showing interest.
It's hard to forget but have no choice just to let it subside.
Basically some concepts about relationship now.
Uni life - u have to juggle between studies and cca. But How would u have time to go into a relationship, some pple may asked.
It's 2 edges la, all the more uni life isn't really about mugging, that's why pple get attached easily or rather uni life is too busy with mugging to get attached.
So which one is correct? i wonder.
When we are mugging, we pray for holidays to come, when holidays come we pray for school to open. wierd cycle.
Maybe i just need to have a aim in my life or rather an aim during my holidays...

2006-12-14T01:00:00.000+08:00

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Preferably females but guys are alright.
Pay - the additional knowledge gained during mugging hours.
If interested, Please contact 1900 123 MUG.
Thank you.
Walk in interviews are on Monday to Fridays 8am to 8pm daily.

2006-12-13T22:29:00.000+08:00

one worry down.
next up : cash problem.
Hall activities are taking up my personal life.
this shouldn't be the case.
ok.
Move on.

2006-12-13T14:52:00.000+08:00

FE 1001, FE 1005, FE 1007. Here i come.
It's time to set aside troublesome worries and stat to really focus on the priorities in life.
Guessed too much freedom isn't that good afterall.
I hoped to achieve something out of this holiday and well gain something useful.
Hmm...
Some things in mind.
1.Gary is going to penang which means we can't plan our timetable for next semester together.( cos we wanna have a 4 day work week and @ least have a buddy to go for lectures )
2.Exam results are not out yet, which means i cant decide between taking a minor or not. If my average are a B and above, yup i would wanna take a minor if not, forget it concentrate on my degree.
3.Felt too committed to hall activities after exams, this shouldn't be the case, cause before exam i was bunking in hall and after exam i am still in hall. This should not be the case ah. Feel like no life at all sia. It's either hostel or home, hostel or home. feeling burnt out.
4.The thot of returning to track n field. Feeling lazy to get back my stamina and well dun even know whether is it worth it to sacrifice times spent with frens in return for training. 10km everyday spent in macritchie = 4 hours daily. Am i disciplined enough ?
5.BGR - of course. Rejection is inevitable in reality, but who can really face rejection and say not feeling sad about it. The idea of just being frens or being boyfriend/gerfrens haunts the mind.

#include
int main(void)
{
int decision;
printf("Enter your decision to chase or not to chase, 1. Yes 2.No : ");
scanf("%d", &decision);
switch (decision)
{
case 1 : printf("You ask her to be yr gf, she rejects, and u 2 distant away");
break;
case 2 : printf("You ask her to be yr gf, she accepts, and u 2 gets together");
break;
default : printf("She gets attached. and you 2 are just best of frens.");
}
fflush(stdin);
getchar();
return 0;
}

well, it's cool to know you can apply computing to such scenarios. whaha think i really cut out to be an engineering student. what the hell.
6.finding someone to share the same goal in mind isn't quie easy. They say holidays are for you to play and sch reopens are for you to study. So play hard study hard = just slack off your holidays, don't study, school reopens then bia. I beg to differ.
i believed in what u reaped = what you sow. My fruit of labour comes 4 years later and well i dun think i am really that smart and thus hardworking is the key to attain the goal. think it's time to form studying groups or mugging partners.
7.you have time but you don;t have cash = you cant really do anything at all. Yah my hols can be very fun filling at the expense of cash, I can go batam cable skiing at a fee of $80, i can go a one day malaysian trip at $100, i can go diving @ $300, i can go out watch shows, play lan, boardgames, ktv @ $$. i can go around dining @ every restaurant for good food. I can even go for a holiday. Well you get the idea. Everything needs cash. Why i keep on saying my life is sian and boring, it's not that i duno how to play, it's just that reality hits in as you grow up.
born in a middle income family cannot be compared to a person born with a silver spoon. enuff said.
bottom line : it's time to be a bad guy to go n teach tuition to young n naive students with my limited knowledge. whahahahaha

2006-12-11T23:03:00.000+08:00

Cat high 4-8 gathering minus tze wee, nr wang, marc and those who came n left.

2006-12-05T12:31:00.000+08:00

An excerpt from someone's blog

That's possibly why I'm not going into a relationship because I admit I rather love myself than love someone based on how I like about her looks.
So what if the girl likes you and you like the girl? It doesn't mean shit. It just means that both of you are sexually attracted according to your genetic makeup: to a guy he wants to have sex and to a girl I still don't have a freaking clue.

I think fairy tales pervert the way we look at this theme "and they both lived happily ever after." Wow, being inundated with this idealized theme, most of us are trying to accomplish this aim to get the ONE. I mean, do you really think you will live happily ever after? I'm sure it will be fraught with problems and you are aware of it. You may think that it may strengthen the relationship or whatsoever. Perhaps it is the obstinate view of holding on to this fairy tale of love which we try to deny any logical reason to separate from our so called "the ONE".

interesting huh. does this sounds like someone you know ?

2006-12-04T13:20:00.000+08:00

blEach**
Hols r here. and i have worked for 2 days at sitex. earn 50 dollars, spend $100 dollars. Not worth it.
bought a earpiece and a prodikey.
Kinda regretted it, the prodikey buttons are too soft. but the tutorial is quite easy. can play the chorus of my fav songs liao.
my mum wanna sell away the piano and get an electronic keyboard instead. save space.
hmm...
K holidays supposed to be filled with lots of stuff. have lots of trainings and seems like it's so troublesome to travel o ntu for that just few hours of training. bleach....
going out soon. better go n make some appointments.
yupx.

2006-12-01T21:19:00.000+08:00

Ok i cuied my effective com exam.
well open book test.
cos it is open book doesn't mean u no need to study.
yah i know.
blame it on the aftermath of chem test the day before which one couldn't really start on studying.
excuses. yeah.
well wun fail effective com. but dun think shall do well for it unless my horrible english can help me pull my grades up and my out of no where crap writing pulls my grades up.
horrible. the content wasn't even found in the textbook, it was made up by pure desperation.
2 hours to write 3 essays.
i took 1 and a half on my 1st 2. and left a miserable half n hour on my 3rd one.
darn and i took 15mins to find the answers for the 3rd questions.
cool left 15mins to write for a blardie 30 marks essay.
call me a genius and guessed what.
i only did around 75% before time's up.
bleach*
Nevertheless, my 1st semester exam is over.
Things i learned during this exam period
1.Confidence is built up when u do tutorials. that is IF you have did your tutorials.
now i know why those ple can score, cos they do their tutorials over n over again...
2.It seemed so astonishing that one could mug finish the whole sem syllabus of content within 2 to 3 days of self study where the lecturer took 3 months to teach these module? What the hell... cui
3.Last minute revision don't help if u never did your tutorials.
4.Tutorial mugging at ntu tutorial room gives tremendous result compared to hostel room.
5.I realised my body temp is high and keeps on radiating heat 24hrs, that's explain the mosquitoes. Hence i can only study in air con.
6.Studying with a gal is a double edged sword. It makes your day or breaks your day, especially when after lunch another guy joins u 2.
7.Once u lag on tutorial, especially physics tutorial, you are always lagging. Wthout fail, It's factually proven.
8.After all the mugging within the past few weeks, i realised i learned more that i actually learned within the 3 months. COOL.
9.Exam ends, makes one lose the sense of direction.
10.I only have 1 more month to play before the whole cycle continues again...

2006-11-30T21:03:00.000+08:00

one more darn paper to go!!!!

well i think this exam not that bad not that well.

hope it exceeds my expectation.

cant wait to get back my results wor!!!

2006-11-28T23:04:00.000+08:00

I feel vexed about something recently.
yet i caught a cold today. fan shang jia fan.
where's my usual self confidence?
It seems jealousy poisons the mind.
Oh well.
2 more paper to go.

2006-11-26T00:31:00.000+08:00

darn. 3 more to go.

2006-11-17T20:53:00.000+08:00

3 papers down. 4 to go.

2006-11-16T01:56:00.000+08:00

kc is back.

but mahjong have to wait... =(

i sense a spiritual presence in my life recently.

i hope that lady luck will bless me.

one paper down. 6 more to go.

2006-11-09T00:52:00.000+08:00

Internet explorer 7

took out the password.

yah.

and see you one month later

2006-11-07T21:17:00.000+08:00

The remains of the fellowship of Cat high 4-8 2001. minus KC, Ronnie, Marc, Alvin and Qida.

2006-11-07T21:16:00.000+08:00

Jw bday. Happy 21.

2006-11-05T23:08:00.000+08:00

I hate it when i have questions to ask but noone is there to teach me.

Argh, i just realised i am seriously lacking of abled counterparts to leech on.

It seems that the only one i could refer to is Eric my og mate, he's the only guy that we discuss our questions and stuff together.

Haiz, apparently so, what i duno, my roomie also duno, and the pple on my contact list from my tutorial class apparently also duno!

what the hell, it seems like i am the only one on my work and i am still lagging on tutorials...

and it seems that i am really that pure n innocent or the clique of frens i mix with.

Well recently there has been news of gals offering herself to guys for sex and many hanky pankies doings in the hostel.

the bad side of the school's culture huh...

haiz i rather choose not to believe such things has been going on although i am aware of it la. believed in the goodness of people.

lol....

what crap

2006-11-04T23:36:00.000+08:00

Happy 21st bday jw and huimin.

yah.

one word - bloated.

Nice meeting up.

Yes.

Nice seeing all of the people.

of course.

I am speechless.

1 more month to hanging out again.

2006-10-30T18:47:00.000+08:00

oh moi god!!!
Mdm rowena jung looks like swan and swan looks like Mdm rowena jung.
whahaha...
just had effective com today...

2006-10-28T17:18:00.001+08:00

Recently i love to take afternoon naps.

i loved the dreams i have, cos usually i found out that i can expect how the dreams can happen when in reality it cant.

i was kinda astonished that i dreamt about someone i met earlier in the morning ago and din knew that a deep impression was left behind.

Anyway, seriously i am beginning to start to revolve around my own axis again...

immersed in my own studying zone. a bit the anti social i think.

ha. exam stress.

Actually i kinda look forward to the aftermath of the exams.

oh no... time for more catching up to do...

2006-10-28T17:18:00.000+08:00

2006-10-23T17:53:00.000+08:00

How do you explain,
How do you describe,
A love that goes from east to west,
And runs and deep as it is wide?

You know all our hopes
Lord, you know all our fears
And words cannot express the love we feel
But we long for You to hear

Chorus:
So listen to our hearts (oh, Lord, please listen)
Hear our spirits sing (and hear us sing)
A song of praise that flows (a simple song of praise)
From those You have redeemed (from those You have redeemed)
We will use the words we know
To tell You what an awesome God You are
But words are not enough
To tell You of our love
So listen to our hearts

Verse 2:
If words could fall like rain
From these lips of mine
And if I had a thousand years
I would still run out of time

So if You listen to my heart
Every beat would say,
“Thank You for the Life, thank You for the Truth, thank You for the Way.”

2006-10-22T01:20:00.000+08:00

econs test on friday.

After taking the paper... was completely shagged out.

feeling of energy being drained out completely.

the 5 days of constant mugging from last monday to friday certainly overcrowds my brain.

as a topic discussed early with my peers.

Stress from uni is not about how hard the exams questions are, it comes from the agenda of scoring full marks for the relatively easy exam questions.

Comparing to hwachong mid year or stuff, the quizes are easy.

to be able to score high marks is not anything special, to score full marks is the key.

looks like i need to work hard on it.

Anyway, korean love letter is nice!!!

just watch bada on the show, some angles she's quite cute and her voice is so erm special. duno how to describe...

well i do not have anything against low pitch/tone gers, but it's kinda a turn on to listen to such a voice like bada's. Lol

well back to another week of constant studying.

definition of mugging - when a person mugs, he had actually done his tutorial and preparing for the final exam.

definition of studying - trying to keep up on his work.

looks like i am trying to catch up on my tutorial. oh no....

2006-10-19T16:26:00.000+08:00

final pic smile.

2006-10-19T16:25:00.001+08:00

all of us @ mind's

2006-10-19T16:25:00.000+08:00

2 bday girls

2006-10-14T16:23:00.000+08:00

Currently now kinda addicted to K pop, K singers and K variety.

now having a thing for korean girls. especially chae yeon.

somebody please slap me out of my dream.

Thank you.

wahaha

2006-10-13T19:45:00.000+08:00

I am like a fleetin cloud who stumbles into someone's life occasionally, leaving a vague impression.
I like to be not so active, as one could appreciate the peacefulness around him.
No responsibilities.
Noone to judge you on how you behave.
No scrutinization.
I am selfish.
I am only interested in things and people i am interested in.
I try to maintain a high level of interest to pple i like, or things i enjoyed doing.
On the contrary, if i am disinterested in someone or things, i would just shrug it aside.
I believe in practicality and set goals, attain goals and try to fufil it.
This is kenvin teo.
unless someone/something comes along the way n change him.