Got a hall. Back to hall 14. I found out that i love studying in lee wee nam library. No more long and irritating bus/train rides to sch. BUT i will be only staying in hall on tuesday, wednesday only. Darn... See how it goes.

The Taiwanese drama craze is back.

18 censored or not!!!

woahoooooooooooooOOOoOoooOOooo

Recess is here.

time to catch up.

Glenn Frey - The One You Love Lyrics print version

I know you need a friend, someone you can talk to
Who will understand what you're going through
When it comes to love, there's no easy answer
Only you can say what you're gonna do
I heard you on the phone, you took his number
Said you weren't alone, but you'd call him soon
Isn't he the guy, the guy who left you cryin'?
Isn't he the one who made you blue?
When you remember those nights in his arms
You know you gotta make up your mind

Are you gonna stay with the one who loves you
Or are you goin' back to the one you love?
Someone's gonna cry when they know they've lost you
Someone's gonna thank the stars above

What you gonna say when he comes over?
There's no easy way to see this through
All the broken dreams, all the disappointment
Oh girl, what you gonna do?
Your heart keeps sayin' it's just not fair
But still you gotta make up your mind

Are you gonna stay with the one who loves you
Or are you goin' back to the one you love?
Someone's gonna cry when they know they've lost you
Someone's gonna thank the stars above

*nice song - i wanna learn to play it on the piano

我觉得我自己不适合结交异性的朋友。每当我认识一个新的异性朋友，久而久之我会不知觉的慢慢地跟她们疏远而去。我不懂这是什么原因。同性的朋友法反而不会有这种问题存在。或许是因为男人与男人之间有同样的话题，又或者是因为当男女之间的友情变质后，会往往疏远对方。我觉得我很奇怪，或者是一个很幼稚的人。

我只对美丽的东西而感兴趣。

比如说一只手套。我喜欢选购或者挑选美丽又新颖的款式，但是不到两三个月，就会重新寻找另外几双更新有

不同大小的手套。白色的手套反而似乎每天都陪伴着我身边。 如果手套突然间变变成不是手套，反而变成了一

种超越喜欢的感觉，就好像天天把手套穿着，不舍得取下来。这就是手套与主人之间的感情变质。

人们需要手套来取暖，手套何尝不需要人们来取暖？。

手套会希望人们穿上手套出门，可是人们突然天天带着同样的手套，那会怎么办？

手套或许也喜欢天天跟着主人，但是如果手套不喜欢呢？

所以当手套与我之间的用途变质后，我会渐渐地把手套疏远，然后把它拍卖在EBAY上，让手套可以寻找一个更适合它的主人。

这是一种逃避方法。因为我不敢问手套它到底在想什么。因为主人觉得手套没有可能会喜欢上自己。

或者如果手套能够开口说话，那么事情就更容易解决了。

但是这只是一厢情愿吧了。因为手套根本就不懂主人在想什么。。。

200+ applications
one interview
61 successful
19 singaporeans
AIESEC 07/08

hai. so what if i can run below 8mins for 2.4km, do 20plus pull ups, 60plus seatups in a min, jump 250++cm for sbj and run 9.2s for shuttlerun.
All these are in the past. Evolving or degenrating from a sportsman to a club person. A club person is someone who dont do sports and just organise events and stuff. Oh moi god, what has happen to the ex cross country runner who can run like 100km per week, doing 2 sets of 2.4 km under 10mins consecutively or perhaps run 21km in one short for trainings. One of the regrets in my life is the failure to get a 6 packed abs. I can't believed it, they say running a lot will train you to get 6 abs, but how come i dun have ah.. i caught a glimpse of 6 abs forming during my army days, but after passing out, due to a slack unit i dont have the motivation to train it. Now i really wanna spend that few hundred dollars just to get the tummi trif device or pills so that my abs could be easily obtained without any vigorous exercise... Wahah... I always procasinate about training, or rather getting my fitness back. I lack a motivation though. In the army there's the award of a best pt, hence i trained for and eventually clinched it without competition. However, now in ntu, there's no money or regonition for just running fast? perhaps for the $400 army gave out... I feel like running again... but then i lack a training partner. I want to run for leisure no competitively. I like the feeling of running long hours without feelig tired, perhaps a best picture would be a guy running towards a long neverending road where in front of him is a picture of the deep blue sky that keeps him going on and on. Oh, i want to train but i need a training partner... argh how to find one... It's like so many focus and priorities in life. ah it's just excuses... i think i need someone to discipline me, that explains why without a training partner i wouldn't want to train alone... tsk tsk tsk...

am i ready to lead? i have always been asking myself this question for ages. I believe leadership is inherent, everyone has leadership qualities in them, but to lead people and to achieve positive results is hard. I have always been a lazy kind of person in life. Considering myself 'selfish' bah, i will only spearhead a project if there aren't anyone volunteering themselves. I believe that if people want to lead the group or has the desire to lead the group in accomplishing task, i would not hesistate in giving up my chance of vying for leadership. The reasons are probably because i am giving other people a chance to show their leadership instead. However, deep down inside i think it's because i am rather a laidback person or perhaps i don't wanna take responsibility. Afterall, a group's success or failure depends on the leader itself. Hmm, perhaps the time that i actually step up and lead a group to do things was probably organizing class chalets or activities. It seemed that i wanted to organise something is because of lack of volunteer and actually there is motivation for me to do something for the class. So basically, for me to take up a leadership role, 1st, noone wants to be the leader, second, the agenda of the group must be of an interest to me... This seems like a selfish nature of my part, haiz, afterall it's about consequences of undertaking a project to guide it to a failure or success.

Joining AIESEC is certainly a breakthrough in my life. This is because not only i will be forced to lead, but i will be trained to be very vocal and expressive. I seldom speak out because i always consider about the opinions of others like this guy being too critical and stuff, or suggest too many opinions gives the idea that the person is very authoritative, or simply speaking not to put down on people cos not many people like the idea of constructive critism... Undertaking various projects, expanding my socal network, improving communication skills and to talk in front of the crowd in a conference are certainly challenges in life. Such experience are a criteria in working life after graduation and that's partly the reason why i joined this cca. It's about changing one's perspective and knowing more friends, planning events and working in a group to accomplish something.

However, i am still half hearted of the unknown... Because i do not know whether will i fall in the presence of difficulties, will success bestowed to me after all the effort i put in? will i be a better person? am i capable enough to prove to oneself that i could be a leader afterall... Perhaps perhaps a judgement could be made after i go through more inuctions and the jump start camp next week... perhaps i will turn out to be a better person instead? lol