桃花坞里桃花庵，桃花庵里桃花仙；桃花仙人种桃树，又摘桃花换酒钱。酒醒只在花前坐，酒醉还来花下眠；半醒半睡日复日，花落花开年复年。但愿老死花酒间，不愿鞠躬车马前；车尘马足贵者趣，酒盏花枝贫者缘。
若将富贵比贫贱，一在平地一在天；若将贫贱比车马，他得驰骋我得闲。别人笑我太峰巅，我笑他人看不穿；不见五陵豪杰墓，无花无酒耕作田。

the 3 on my lappie is spoilt. darn.

good news : exams over!
bad news : time to look for a job.

sheesh when will this cycle end?

It's raining heavily in the streets.

Guy and Girl were on the street, drenched.

Girl was holding a jacket trying to shelter her from the rain.
Girl: "What?"
Guy: " I love you."
Girl: "Ooh I Love you too.", and she turns away trying to hail a cab
Guy: "I wanna tell you why I love you."
Girl: "It's... It's raining, you know that right.", again she turns and tries to hail a cab.
Guy: ""I have to tell you this and you need to hear it."
Girl turns around and wait for the guy to speak.
Guy:
"I loved you since I met you, but I wouldn't allow myself to truly feel it until today."
"I was always thinking ahead, making decisions soaked with fear..."
"Today, because of you... what I learned from you; every choice I made was different and my life has completely changed..."
"and I've learned that if you do that, then you're living your life fully..."
"It doesn't matter if you have five minutes or fifty years."
"If not for today, if not for you I would never have known love at all..."
"So thank you for being the person who taught me to love..."
"and to be love."
Girl: "I don't know what to say."
Guy: "You don't have to say anything... I just wanted to tell you."
Girl: "Thank you."
The cab arrives and she gets into the cab.
Girl: "Are you coming?"
Guy hesitates for a moment, he knew what was impending and finally made a choice.
Guy: "Yes of course."
The cab stops at a junction in the middle of a downpour.

"wham"

A car just rammed into the stationary cab.

Girl: " Why am i here and he isn't... He had a premonition, and he tried to tell me but i din believe him... Right before he got into the cab, he told me how i taught him to love. Loving him was so easy for me... but he just wanted to say everything..."
and she sobs...

only the girl survived...

Every now and then when it's raining, i just felt like watching this movie, this particular scence, and hear this particular conversation again.
It's a heartwrenching moment, the feeling of not cherishing the loved ones around you and by the time you losed them, it's too late to feel anything.
Raining almost everyday... How cosy to sleep...

Redefined goals.

work towards it.

effort quivalent to result. that's what i always believe in.

you want the cash, go earn it yrself.

you want to do well in studies, put in effort in studying.

if you want to slack ? how?

wahahaha

Get to know yourself better
Your view on yourself:

You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?
Your views on education

You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.
The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.
What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.
Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

What is the pursuit of happiness?

Currently i dun feel happy studying. i mean who really feels happy about studying? I feel that learning is a slow process and studying just to score for exams are redundant. I mean why must an examination force you to regurgitate out what you have been taught to learn, and then based on what you learned, assess you and compared it with other individuals. Perhaps it's how the society distinguishes between the one who can really memorise the text. and perhaps it's this gauge which determines how much you earned in the future? cos the logic is the more you can memorise, the more you can concur to the examinations papers set by someone else. It's like a situation of just trying to blend into a group of knowledge freaks... hmm... pardon me if i am wrong. That's like how sad, but society is like that.

Sheesh, i know deep down inside i am a slacker. a 100% slacker who only likes to eat, sleep and watc tv. This society judges by how much u can earned, and the norm is that if you got a degree, you will be able to earn a little bit more than others... Down to the main point, studying is just for the gain of individual's knowledge? then why must we be forced to prove ourselves to others? or studying is just to get a blardee job and earn some cash. Perhaps and perhaps, the best solution of all is to be rich and yeah... how to be rich?

study lor!

%^@$%^$%#@^%

Wish list for the next few years
1. get selected for the USA work and travel scheme.
2. INSTEPS?
3. GIP?
4. Overseas Attachment.
5. Hongkong.
6. Eurotrip. (graduation)

seems like i need to earn the cash for such treats.

darn.

Just watched If only. well a film that deals with a time loop. What if only you knew that what is going to happen in 24hours time and that you only have one day to make your choice. Somewhat similiar to groundhog day but in groundhog day, the male protagonist got to relive his day 365 times x 10 years. That's 3650 time before his time loop disappears. In If only, the male protagonist only has 1 time to so call put things right. Oh well, it's not a comedy. hint* get ready your tissues.
Here are the 2 songs from the flim... btw Rise of Taj + harold and kumar goes to white castle are indeed retail therapy for the upcoming exams...

Take my heart back lyrics.

It'll be alright
You said
Tommorrow
Don't you cry
Don't you shed a tear
When you wake up
I will still be here
When you wake up
We'll battle all your fears
And now I'll...

Take my heart back
Leave your pictures on the floor
Steal back my memories
I can't take it anymore
I've cried my eyes out
Oh,and now I face the years
The way you loved me
Vanished all the tears

Just a little more time was all we needed
Just a little time for me to see
Oh,the light that life can give you
Oh,how we get such a free
So now I'll...

Take my heart back
Leave your pictures on the floor
Steal back my memories
I can't take it anymore
I've cried my eyes out
Oh,and now I face the years
The way you loved me
Vanished all the tear

Love will show you everything

Today, today I bet my life
You have no idea
What I feel inside
Don't, be afraid to let it show
For you'll never know
If you let it hide

I love you
You love me
Take this gift and don't ask why
Cause if you will let me
I'll take what scares you
Hold it deep inside
And if you ask me why I'm with you
And why I'll never
Leave
Love will show you everything

One day
When youth is just a memory
I know you'll be standing right next to me

I love you
You love me
Take this gift and don't ask why
Cause if you will let me
I'll take what scares you
Hold it deep inside
And if you ask me why I'm with you
And why I'll never
Leave
My love will show you everything
My love will show you everything
My love will show you everything
My love will show you everything

been sick-ed from yesterday.

in order to be able to study, one must have a healthy body 1st.

few more days to exams.

stressed.