i hope for school to reopen; cos i have targets to achieve, plans to fufil...

after slacking for so much, i really felt that although studying is a chore but at least it has a purpose in life; (just that i wished the lecturers will go on a slower pace.)

clubbing was never my cup of tea. I hate the sleezy atmosphere. Very duo4 luo4. And becos i dislike clubbing; naturally there's a resentment towards the gers who clubbed.

drinking; i dun drink beer; i dun drink alchohols; becos of the taste; well if u can mix well and mask the vodka taste; i could glupped it down...

girls; i am neutral to them; just that sometimes you yearned for an opposite sex for companionship cos u have been mixing around with guys for quite a while...

bball; the best sport ever; it strengthen ties with sec 1 mates; it is low cost; gives back high utils.

mahjong; zi moed my 1st 13 yao; expecting bad luck... soon...

results; disappointing; but encouraging; ah tiongs and dapao pls go away.

my hostel room; it seems so clean after a big da shao chu; nice environment to stay; still prefer tutorial rooms to wack tutorials.

friends; hi bye frens; funny frens; wierd frens...

i prefer to remain a low profile in uni; cos to be high profile; u have to do lots of stuff to let pple to know u; which is equal to lots of times wasted... Have a taste of being high profile in sec sch and jc; sick of forking too much time to do stuff. it's time to slack and i kinda enjoyed it.

Proposed plan for next sem; study; sleep afternoon nap; do tutorials; after tutorials; socialise; weekend; go out; spend time with frens and the cycle continues.

Lack of sleep = no interest in doing anything...

Ok. 2nd lower; Next sem jia you lor.
hope to become Mr A.
Well results exceed my expectation of GPA 3.1.
The only result that is below my expectation is MATHS. Got B-. Expected B.
Nevertheless, crapping of effective com gives me A B.
As you guessed it all Bs...

and i think i just zi mo a shi san yao yesterday...

so long never update.

It's bballing again when we have the chance. Yup; that's the activity that can gave you same or less than utils relatively spending time with yr gf. (oh no; i am starting to use stuff that i learnt in school; is this the 1st step to transform into an engineer?)

Christmas eve; watched night of the museum; eat tau hui; play pool; chit chat till 4am.

2 different human behaviour could be concluded after 4 hours of debating; arguments and chit chatting.

Type A : A guy would only take notice of a ger when the ger actually gave him hints or singals that she is actually interested in the guy; otherwise the guy only treat gers around him as his frens. This we call him Mr passive;
Passive guys are those who are so call bochup in a way; but when they are involved in a relationship; they would actually dote on their gf much more than others; more committed.

Type B : A guy who actually starts to do things to impress the gal which is a fren he likes; etc buy food; buy panadol etc; (this guy is totally opposite from the passive guy as passive guy only believes in doing such things to her gf instead of to a normal fren)
These guys know what type of gers they want and so called their way of spending of cash on gers e.g going out to watch a movie is considering chasing.

Dr huang and me belonged to type A while Charlie Choo belongs to type B. Quite true i think.

Next day 9pm was basketball again. 5 hours of sleep not enuff; but we had a fun time.
then went to kent ridge to help tze wee prepare his xmas day dinner. Quite fun; should have asked more pple to help.
The experience was precious; cos it was the 1st time when a guy goes into the kitchen and erm hmmm doesn't really know what he is doing...
some funny episodes; like grated cheese which is ya know the pizza type of cheese; so if we dun have grated cheese, we just use a knife to slice the whole slab of cheese into smaller bits. Using an egg beater to try to minced the sauages and bisquit flour; erm actually was supposed to use a mincer instead; so use knife to try to cut it as small as possible. Agaration in measuring out the amount of ingredients in the recipe and combining everything into a dish.

After 6; went for xmas partee! Oh Yah these xmas; i received lots of shirts; that saved my new year clothings bah. A total of 6 new shirts being given. Lol this remind me of the incident that charlie and i almost wore the same green shirt out on xmas eve, whaha luckily i changed my mind at the last minute if not is jitao sian diao.... After xmas partee was mahjong with cousin till 4plus am;then woke up around 3pm the next day.

26 boxing day was supposed t0 be going for delphi's xmas partee; erm i din have time to buy presents then plus it was raining and lack of sleep so in the end just didn't want to go; was feeling sick also; sneezing whole day. Watched 2 Japanese drama in a day.

I watched the jap version of meteor garden; darn nice and this shan cai was more better looking than DA S. I hate DA S; i dun think she's beautiful. wierd taste of pple. how come all those taiwanese drama must find her to act. Basically i think in MARS, DA S shouldn't act lor, so ugly. ZAI ZAI is quite cool in MARS; shuai in shen qing mi ma. Anyway meteor garden in jap somehow or rather reinstate my belief in loving someone. Yup when u love someone, you would do things unexpectedly, like dao ming si got wacked by others just to protect shan cai, when he gets jealous when hua ze lei and shan cai are together; when he pickes on her just becos he cares about her; and teach others a lesson when others insulted shan cai; all these small little things really reflect or indicates how one loves another. like for shancai to decides whether she loves hua ze lei or daomingsi; her indication was the person who she was thinking of in her mind when she's out doing something...

Next as some air stewardess show; quite nice; with shang hu cai acting as a rookie air stewardess, on the bloopers she made during her training and how she reacted during some unexpected situations.

Oh yah saw the inter jc pageant. F3 and F10 are my type of gals which i think is pretty lar; basically i think my expectations in gers are quite high and my range is quite big though. lol...

However one thing that certainly keeps me wondering about. My fren told me F3 is a mother; she gave birth to a child and still maintains her figure. 18 yrs old; an unwed mother. I wonder nowadays how many gers are actually considered virgins in this new era? Recent survey in NTU by hearsay i think from daren; NTU gers about 40% admitted into having sex before. it's like 1 out of 2 gers actually have sexual experience???

Let's face reality; guys really do care about a ger's virginity. Basically the model tys answer when a bf found out his gf is not a virgin; he would tell the gf that he don't mind as he only loves the girl. THis is just an assurance lah. It's crap which i believed. If i was in the same scenario; i really duno what to do lar, if i found out my gf is not a virgin; of course i mind lar but becos you love her too deeply to actually mind about her virginity but down inside of course u r affected. It's just like marginal benefit exceeds marginal cost. This statement doesn't really means there is absence of cost. So consumers actually has the burden of cost to handle with...
So don't name such guys as shallow or what; cos not many guys are god...
I wonder how many NTU gers are not virgins anymore...... rough estimation i think should be about 50% bah... sad to say; i would rather not know about it... so gers out there, it's best to lie to yr bf, actually not lie; is when u lie; u must make sure he NEVER finds out... or come clean with it; and just wait for time to heal...

LOl

Christmas is coming....
It seems so wierd to be spending christmas at home.
However i really don't feel like asking anyone out to spend christmas with.
Why? cos there's no purpose in doing so...
as you aged, you would find that sometimes doing things alone is quite enjoyable.
Not so long ago, i went to popular alone, browsing through majority of the books there, spent some quality time reading, with solitude and peacefulness. I went walking around toa payoh central, seeing things, hearing things and just enjoy the stroll while the rain is pouring heavily.
Basically what i need is someone to enjoy this journey with me.
Someone who feels such trivial stuff aint wasting his/her times.
That's what good friends are for.
hOwever, how many good frens can one have in his or her lifetime?
Can all good frens of that person mixed together? i wonder....
Sometimes, 2 frens can have so much things to talk about, for etc on the train to boonlay; one could talk non stop to each other, and one could just go ahead and sleep without feeling tired. This is what i call good frens.
I doubt i am ever ready for a relationship; becos i fall in love too easily or rather i crushes pretty gers easily which in layman terms jw says xin shang. Yah i like to talk to pretty gers, go out with pretty gers, but only on the context of just having a pretty fren.
I still believed that i havn't met someone that my heart will skipped at 1st sight. Someone which i wanna talk to everyday; someone that i wanna know more about; someone that i have the urge to see everyday.
Guessed that i don't fall in love easily; or i crushes pple easily?
aye confused...
haha i am confused.
wat so ever.

I forgot what i want to blog.
Oh yah.
I can't seem to understand how does japanese drama pictures life in the show to be so dreamy; romantic; or interesting.
A scene in the show could show an xmas lightings with pple crowding the street; just by watching it, you could actually feel the xmas spirit.
However back to reality, i went to town yesterday; the people; the mood; the atmosphere is totally different.
Xmas as proposed by weepoh is just another day where retail owners get to makes more money as usual on that day...
Yesterday i was pulled into the world of jdramas by a recent jdrama which i bought. The power of jdrama is that it totally brings u into the film and at times makes yr worries or whatsoeverdisappears.
I feel happy watching it and after the show finishes, i kinda felt dreaded to stumble back into the real world.
It's how interesting; lots of pple can do in the film, whilei am stuck at home doing nothing; plus the endless raining going on doesn't help.
Maybe i could emulate what melvin has been doing n teaching abt.
Go to frenster; find ntu gals, and go out with them; that's how spastic lah...
hai...

What's life for me nowadays.
Life been pretty much the same. It's bball, bball and bball.
Cash issue hasn't been solved. Still looking for tutees. Anyone?
Plan an ideal time table, and it all boils down to results and the fastest fingers win!
Hope my GPA will be 3.5 and above - minimum expectation at least a 2nd lower. (wierd huh, expectation seems to drop every now and then from 1st class to 2nd upper to 2nd lower).
See is it possible to get a minor - (if my gpa was 4.0 i will if it was 3.9, i think i shall just skip the minor).
I'm still feeling quite sore about what had happend. As the saying goes xin ai de ren jie hun le, ke shi xin lang bu shi ni.
Is not there's no gan jue between the both of us, it's just that the timing is not rght and well there was too little iterest shown on my part.
I have a tendency to consider whether a relationship will work out before making a decision hence the delayed in showing interest.
It's hard to forget but have no choice just to let it subside.
Basically some concepts about relationship now.
Uni life - u have to juggle between studies and cca. But How would u have time to go into a relationship, some pple may asked.
It's 2 edges la, all the more uni life isn't really about mugging, that's why pple get attached easily or rather uni life is too busy with mugging to get attached.
So which one is correct? i wonder.
When we are mugging, we pray for holidays to come, when holidays come we pray for school to open. wierd cycle.
Maybe i just need to have a aim in my life or rather an aim during my holidays...

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one worry down.
next up : cash problem.
Hall activities are taking up my personal life.
this shouldn't be the case.
ok.
Move on.

FE 1001, FE 1005, FE 1007. Here i come.
It's time to set aside troublesome worries and stat to really focus on the priorities in life.
Guessed too much freedom isn't that good afterall.
I hoped to achieve something out of this holiday and well gain something useful.
Hmm...
Some things in mind.
1.Gary is going to penang which means we can't plan our timetable for next semester together.( cos we wanna have a 4 day work week and @ least have a buddy to go for lectures )
2.Exam results are not out yet, which means i cant decide between taking a minor or not. If my average are a B and above, yup i would wanna take a minor if not, forget it concentrate on my degree.
3.Felt too committed to hall activities after exams, this shouldn't be the case, cause before exam i was bunking in hall and after exam i am still in hall. This should not be the case ah. Feel like no life at all sia. It's either hostel or home, hostel or home. feeling burnt out.
4.The thot of returning to track n field. Feeling lazy to get back my stamina and well dun even know whether is it worth it to sacrifice times spent with frens in return for training. 10km everyday spent in macritchie = 4 hours daily. Am i disciplined enough ?
5.BGR - of course. Rejection is inevitable in reality, but who can really face rejection and say not feeling sad about it. The idea of just being frens or being boyfriend/gerfrens haunts the mind.

#include
int main(void)
{
int decision;
printf("Enter your decision to chase or not to chase, 1. Yes 2.No : ");
scanf("%d", &decision);
switch (decision)
{
case 1 : printf("You ask her to be yr gf, she rejects, and u 2 distant away");
break;
case 2 : printf("You ask her to be yr gf, she accepts, and u 2 gets together");
break;
default : printf("She gets attached. and you 2 are just best of frens.");
}
fflush(stdin);
getchar();
return 0;
}

well, it's cool to know you can apply computing to such scenarios. whaha think i really cut out to be an engineering student. what the hell.
6.finding someone to share the same goal in mind isn't quie easy. They say holidays are for you to play and sch reopens are for you to study. So play hard study hard = just slack off your holidays, don't study, school reopens then bia. I beg to differ.
i believed in what u reaped = what you sow. My fruit of labour comes 4 years later and well i dun think i am really that smart and thus hardworking is the key to attain the goal. think it's time to form studying groups or mugging partners.
7.you have time but you don;t have cash = you cant really do anything at all. Yah my hols can be very fun filling at the expense of cash, I can go batam cable skiing at a fee of $80, i can go a one day malaysian trip at $100, i can go diving @ $300, i can go out watch shows, play lan, boardgames, ktv @ $$. i can go around dining @ every restaurant for good food. I can even go for a holiday. Well you get the idea. Everything needs cash. Why i keep on saying my life is sian and boring, it's not that i duno how to play, it's just that reality hits in as you grow up.
born in a middle income family cannot be compared to a person born with a silver spoon. enuff said.
bottom line : it's time to be a bad guy to go n teach tuition to young n naive students with my limited knowledge. whahahahaha

Cat high 4-8 gathering minus tze wee, nr wang, marc and those who came n left. 

An excerpt from someone's blog

That's possibly why I'm not going into a relationship because I admit I rather love myself than love someone based on how I like about her looks.
So what if the girl likes you and you like the girl? It doesn't mean shit. It just means that both of you are sexually attracted according to your genetic makeup: to a guy he wants to have sex and to a girl I still don't have a freaking clue.

I think fairy tales pervert the way we look at this theme "and they both lived happily ever after." Wow, being inundated with this idealized theme, most of us are trying to accomplish this aim to get the ONE. I mean, do you really think you will live happily ever after? I'm sure it will be fraught with problems and you are aware of it. You may think that it may strengthen the relationship or whatsoever. Perhaps it is the obstinate view of holding on to this fairy tale of love which we try to deny any logical reason to separate from our so called "the ONE".

interesting huh. does this sounds like someone you know ?

blEach**
Hols r here. and i have worked for 2 days at sitex. earn 50 dollars, spend $100 dollars. Not worth it.
bought a earpiece and a prodikey.
Kinda regretted it, the prodikey buttons are too soft. but the tutorial is quite easy. can play the chorus of my fav songs liao.
my mum wanna sell away the piano and get an electronic keyboard instead. save space.
hmm...
K holidays supposed to be filled with lots of stuff. have lots of trainings and seems like it's so troublesome to travel o ntu for that just few hours of training. bleach....
going out soon. better go n make some appointments.
yupx.

Ok i cuied my effective com exam.
well open book test.
cos it is open book doesn't mean u no need to study.
yah i know.
blame it on the aftermath of chem test the day before which one couldn't really start on studying.
excuses. yeah.
well wun fail effective com. but dun think shall do well for it unless my horrible english can help me pull my grades up and my out of no where crap writing pulls my grades up.
horrible. the content wasn't even found in the textbook, it was made up by pure desperation.
2 hours to write 3 essays.
i took 1 and a half on my 1st 2. and left a miserable half n hour on my 3rd one.
darn and i took 15mins to find the answers for the 3rd questions.
cool left 15mins to write for a blardie 30 marks essay.
call me a genius and guessed what.
i only did around 75% before time's up.
bleach*
Nevertheless, my 1st semester exam is over.
Things i learned during this exam period
1.Confidence is built up when u do tutorials. that is IF you have did your tutorials.
now i know why those ple can score, cos they do their tutorials over n over again...
2.It seemed so astonishing that one could mug finish the whole sem syllabus of content within 2 to 3 days of self study where the lecturer took 3 months to teach these module? What the hell... cui
3.Last minute revision don't help if u never did your tutorials.
4.Tutorial mugging at ntu tutorial room gives tremendous result compared to hostel room.
5.I realised my body temp is high and keeps on radiating heat 24hrs, that's explain the mosquitoes. Hence i can only study in air con.
6.Studying with a gal is a double edged sword. It makes your day or breaks your day, especially when after lunch another guy joins u 2.
7.Once u lag on tutorial, especially physics tutorial, you are always lagging. Wthout fail, It's factually proven.
8.After all the mugging within the past few weeks, i realised i learned more that i actually learned within the 3 months. COOL.
9.Exam ends, makes one lose the sense of direction.
10.I only have 1 more month to play before the whole cycle continues again...