Thought of names for my children if i have some in the future.

My daughter's name shall be Zhang Zhi Ling or Zi Ling or Zhi lin or Zi ling. Whateva.

Christian name shall be Krystal, Kerine, Kirsten or Katherine

My son's name shall be Zhang Weihao ( currently can only think of one )

Christian name shall be Kris, or Ken

My health...

My eyes hurts...

must be due to the chlorine water in the swimming pool

Just now...

went to toa payoh central to hunt for the vcd good will hunting.

Stumbled onto the dvd version. no $ to buy. So have to go other places to find.

Wo he qiang shi you ge yue hui 3 is out. $14 to rent. sms eugene heng to lend me.

Dinner...

Ate in SAFTI.

nevertheless shall eat one bowl of rice later.

Movies...

Rent time line. Also have 2 shows starring twins has not been watched yet.

Shall watched it later

Tomorrow...

bringing my tabletennis bat to play tabletennis tomorrow in SAFTI.

Their mess sure have a pingpong table.

My handphone...

Stored some important bdae dates in my hp calender...

So congrats to whoever got my bdae sms. Cos you are not forgotten.

Next...

Shall log off.

Completed my wos duty on saturday.

Alone in the whole coy line.

Very sad.

Nevertheless watched a movie last time that gave me lots of inspiration

hence the need to find more books to read. Quality books

finding forrester is the film i watched yesterday.

Very simple and nice plot.

Inspirational...

Wanna go rent good will hunting too...

maybe i should get the soundtrack...

hmzzz..

Babies are such cute little creatures that descend from heaven just to make life simply a joy to us human beings...

was itching to adopt a baby as my godson so that i can play with that cute little thingie...

that's why i ask andy to go and make one with his gf. In the end he called me siao...

Ha sad to say my relatives that side are not newly married and are quite old... Thus no chance of a new member into the whole family...

Ooo i wanna carry a baby...

watched ...

her/him sleep peacefully in a coy

her/him sucked his/her thumb

her/his eyes staring at me

listened to his/her chuckles...

Hey, next time i wanna have 2 children. Ideally one boy one girl. Perfect.

and i wanna be the godfather of my khakis who if maybe have babies earlier than me.

Ha...

now can only fantasize....

I swam...

in the pool of SAFTI MI

in the pool of NEE SOON CAMP

What i get in return is...

a chao ta body

muscle cramps

and plain fatigue

I wonder...

why am i in this course when i do not know how to swim

how did i convince myself to go for this course

what am i gonna do for the next few days

when will i eventually throw in the towel

who will save me from this plain torture

Reality...

Tomorrow is a day of swimming.

8 to 5pm.

maybe 100 laps?

wish me good luck.

i am bored...

Time to face reality.

My 4 days of freedom is going to end as soon monday starts.

On a Happier note, i will be on a life saving course for 2 weeks. 8am to 5pm at SAFTI MI. Swimming in Open waters and the Swimming pool.

Played lan continously for 3 days. Friday,Saturday,Sunday. Yeah i will be playing lan with my cousins later.

Thursday was off and i went to marina bay for some NS training for an upcoming competition. Met Zhanrui. Teo Zhanrui. One year older, was from VS Xcounty.

Friday, went to bukit timah plaza to play lan with jielun and ronnie's ex classmate.

Saturday, went to nyjc to kick a field match. My debut. Later went to dohby ghaut to play lan with ronnie and his pals.

Sunday ... Ha later then i will know. Anyway my bro is treating.

Btw in the mrt with tze wee. I made a remark about my head being too big.

Hey. i think my head is too big. yeah. or maybe it's becos my centre parting is gone thus exposing my head. which makes it seems too big. or watever.

Weepoh is coming back soon. Erm in one week plus how many more days. Then we can go for chinese new year shopping!

Lol for once we can actually not play lan. Hey we might even play lan after shopping. Arghhhhh.

Got my contacts from the optical shop. Hmzz never wore contacts for 2 months liao...

Have a special feeling to my specs.

I like the image i portray when i go out. Short hair, 3 quarter pants with a shirt plus slippers to orchard road. Copmfortable.

Guessed i should start to dress up nicely. huh.

Watched monkey king quest for the sutra. The one by zhang jian wei which is shown on weekdays 5.30pm. Bia 22 discs.

Yeah going out now.

Ignorance is Bliss.

After one whole round.

Came back to the starting point.

We can't deny that some things had changed.

Even though displacement is zero.

I grew stronger with each step i took.

With a deep breathe.

I will choose the path i will take.

Regardless of anything.

This time...

I will run my own race.

Not be affected by anyone else.

I'd like to tell you a story...

It's a story that you might find strangely familiar.
Don't be alarmed.

Once upon a time, there was a man who was very
attracted to a particular woman.

At first, she was just another attractive woman...
but the more he got to know her, the more he began
to feel attracted to her... and the more time he spent
with her, the more that attraction grew into a deep
emotional attachment and affection for her.

But there was one problem.

As his emotional attachment grew stronger and stronger,
he also grew more and more insecure.

Why?

Because he couldn't tell whether or not she felt
the same way towards him.

Sometimes she would say things like "You are so
important to me" and "I'm glad that you're in my life"...
but nothing ever progressed past the "friendship"
stage.

There was an occasional hug, an occasional kiss
on the cheek from her... and once she even held his
hand for a long time while he talked about an emotional
issue.

But something was wrong with the picture.

She just wasn't acting like a woman that was "falling
in love". She was acting like a friend.

The insecurity that he felt became a spiral that
amplified itself... and the more insecure he became,
the more afraid he grew of "screwing things up" by
kissing her or asking her to be his girlfriend.

Plus, the more insecure he became, the less time
she seemed to want to spend with him.

After spending many days and nights obsessing over
this girl, the man finally arrived at the conclusion
that if she only knew how HE FELT, that she would
feel the same way.

So he made a bold move.

He TOLD HER how he was felt.

He confessed that he was in love, and that he would
do anything to be with her.

She looked at him with compassion in her eyes and
said "Thank you... I really mean that... but I don't
want to mess up our friendship... you're too important
to me...".

This only confused the man more.

He didn't know how to take it...

Did it mean that she really loved him too, but
that she was afraid of something?

Did it mean that she wasn't ready for a long-term
relationship?

Did it mean that she didn't love him, but that
she was trying to give him a hint?

Did it mean that he hadn't tried hard enough?

Did it mean that he needed to put everything on
the line and REALLY let her know how he felt?

He finally decided that he couldn't go on like
this anymore... he had to be with her.

He had to make sure that she knew just how much
he wanted to be with her... so he took a big step,
bought her a symbolic gift, and wrote her a long,
long letter... again confessing his feelings.

And then the unthinkable happened.

She didn't reply.

He called her three times a day for almost a week
before reaching her.

She made an excuse about being very busy, and said
"I'll try to give you a call soon, I have to go"...
and hung up...

...but he never got a call back.

Over the following months, the man tried desperately
to understand what went wrong... and what happened.

THE END

Ha: That was like Ewwwwwwwwwwwww

Just watched the show.

Overwhelmed with sadness.

Witnessed how stephen chow(sun wukong) sacrifice his chance of falling in love to save Athena chu(zixia xian zi).

Must watch : xi you ji zhi xian lu qi yuan.

Swimming selection at SAFTI MI. Passed the test and awarded a chance to go for the lifeguard course next week. Hey i am gonna be swimming daily!

Watched The Aviator. 3 hrs. Not a bad film.

Borrowed books from the library. Spend my day learning philosophy with Plato,Descartes,Aristotle etc.

Metaphysics- the study of reality,of what actually exists
Epistemology- qns about what things we can know, and how we can know them
Philosophy of religion- issues that lie behind religious ideas and languages
Philosophy of the mind- the study of the bature of the self

Borrowed some books on area 51, history of atlantis, the right mind and dreams what they mean.

On a slightly happier note. Read finished the time traveler's wife. Very Sweet and romantic. Must read!

A Poem from the odyssey Homer translated by robert fitzgerald.- abt how deep is their longing for each other till after death.

'Now from his breast into his eyes the ache
of longing mounted, and he wept at last,
his dear wife, clear and faithful,in his arms,
longed for the sunwarmed earth is longed for by a swimmer
spent in rough water where his ship went down
under Poseidon's blows, gale winds and tons of sea.
Few men can keep alive through a big surf
to crawl, clotted with brine, on kindly beaches
in joy, in joy, knowing the abyss behind:
and so she too rejoiced, her gaze upon her husband,
her white arms round him pressed as though forever.'

The time traveler's wife ending is melancholic but with a streak of sweetness in it. The sense of blissfulness and contentment is shown in the last paragraph.

Gonna swim daily starting from tomorrow, cos i need to get in shape for my lifeguard course!

Was She trying to tell me something?

Or is it, it was just a part of my wishful thinking?

She is attached. I think. According to hearsay.

I am confused yet euphoric, however things might not seem the way that i want it to be.

I hate to be in doubt, yet i do not have the courage to clarify things.

As the aftermath resulted in friendship ceased.

What if it was just a misunderstanding?

The sense of disappointment and humility outweights everything.

It has been eons since this topic has surfaced.

Why give me hope that's ambiguous?

I think....

I will procasinate about doing something ...

or just wait for more obvious intimations.

=)

Today went to swim. Keep fit. Whole body ache.

2day only tze wee.me,ronnie and kc was available. 2 members of our usual gang went overseas.

Weiping is posted to 40th S.A.R as dys4.

Rigel is coming to 46th S.A.R.

Junren is posted to 40th S.A.R as quarter master

Planning a taiwan trip at the end of the year. Hope that we can get our leave.

Budget airline is quite risky. Kc do not support this idea. Have to discuss.

Met up with weiyang. Chatted about our daily lives. The rest of the X country people. Heard that eugene mok is in 3 S.I.R. Going to ntu for further studies.

Cat high xcountry changed their coach. The team has many unfarmiliar faces.

Kinglun went to rj.

Meida and dorcas are still training. Weiyang saw them at macritchie today.

Haiz. Nowadaes quite boring. Managed to borrow kc's time traveler's wife to read. Shall complete it this week

Reached home finally.

Dad din come and fetch me. He went to batam.

This week was one hell of a torture.

Fell sick this tuesday. Suddenly. Got a serious flu. Ate panadol cold relief but no use. Someone at the Medical centre told me panadol cold relief doesn;t cure flu. It just make my nose dry up to prevent any more sneezing. Got claratin in the end. plus 2 days attend B.

Everyday been running, doing gym and tabulating on how much i spent. Well, trying to fufil my new year's resolution.

Final conclusion : Spend $20 in one week. Run at least every day. Did weights to build up muscles.

Next week got a selection for life saving course. My front crawl sux. Must train. It's at SAFTI MI. Have to waste $ on transport. Argh.

Cleaned my bunk today. Cannot make it. My bunk still looks uncleaned. Ha.

Addicted to 5.30pm show. The one with the monkey in it. Keke. One whole series cost around $50 in poh kim. Shall go to the gym daily next week

Woke up at 11am.

Chatted with my juniors and frens.

Found out that there's 05s7E for hwachong. ( now it's called Hwachong Insitute )

Junior told me that there's chinese new year celebration for me to go back. But in the morning, don't know can make it not.

Under influence of Kc, started installing window's journal to write chinese words in msn messenger. Cheap thrill.

Next went to central to walk walk. Nothing much. Bought a new comic book. About bball.

Committed a sin. Finished the tub of 2 litre ice cream in less than 24hours.

Updated my blog or just said i revamped it. Trying to add music to my blog.

Watched huan zhu ge ge 3 and xin dong lie che. Can't wait for 8 days to come so i can know what will happen.

2day din exercise. Enough time for muscle recovery.

Anticipating to watch Armageddon by andy lau. Watched already then will prepare to book in.

Cya in 1 week's time.

Swimming in the morning at 10.

Swam front crawl. managed 5 laps.

Swam breast stroke. also managed 5 laps.

Tried backstroke. Can't make it. swam diagonally. almost knocked into someone.

After the swim. Muscle ache. went back home to twang.

Kc and weepoh came. Weepoh came with game of life.

PLayed lan in the afternoon.

Was very wish washy in thinking of what to eat for dinner.

Ideas : Pizza, pasta, zhi cha, sumo bento and banquet. In the end, we chose Jap food.

Dinner quite ex. Bought ice cream then went back home to twang.

Singapore was winning when we watched on the tv. then mahjong n bridge.

Won erm $1.20 haha. cheap thrill.

tomorrow tw's bdae. happy bdae to him

jianwei and weepoh going overseas, bon voyage to them.

tomorrow is a day of relaxation cos muscle ache liao.

1 week has passed...

1. Tv in the bunk helps me to save time by not travelling to the specialist mess.

2. Sleeping at 10pm helps me to cultivate a healthy lifestyle.

3. Eating mashed potatoes instead of cup noodles give me an image of a healthier lifestyle

4. Working out at the gym daily for one and a half hours makes me wanna be mr hot body.

5. Treating men harshly doesn't suit my character.

6. The feeling of being able to impart knowledge makes one beam with confidence.

7. Going on course to learn how to be a lifeguard. ( can earn $ as a part time lifeguard at the pool )

8. Trying to make plans to learn how to play the piano, learn how to drive, learn aikido...

1. Stop eating cup noodles every night. It's unhealthy

2. Prepare to adopt a healthy lifestyle.

3. Start to train everyday for my IPPT and SOC.

4. Run everyday

5. Drink water and milk daily.

6. Save. Target $5000 this year.

that's all i can think of.....